Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Ere-2014 Post

Hi!
So here's another excuses about me being missing in action for a past... wait, let me check my calendar, month?
No excuse actually, it is just another me and my problem with freakin' time management which I, obviously, failed to manage.

It's December 23rd today, wow... less than three days before christmas, and just a week more to new year. Can't believe 2013 will over soon, I'm pretty sure it is still around September, time flies.
I'm busy doing nothing except working on my thesis this month, and I spend many times hang out with friends. So that's why I've been unable to update my blog at all. As everybody know I'm such a slow writer, so if I don't have enough time to write then I won't write at all.
But, but... I do have some new ideas and weekly or monthly stuff to regularly write in this blog. Maybe starting this week? But then again, I can't promise anything, yet I really-really-really want to nail it like seriously.
Seems 2014 will be sooo fun... with all this thing I need to finish and need to start next year, it'll be busier than ever.

So... I think, I'll write a next post soon, in fact I'm writing some of it now.
Then I'll see you soon, and wishing you a merry christmas y'all!

Monday, December 16, 2013

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

"The Internship" : You don't always have to be a tech-savvy geniuses to working at Google


Another great American comedy film to watch in the weekend. Dari pertama kali nonton trailer-nya, gue udah memutuskan, I must watch it! Sebagai manusia yang hidup di jaman canggih kaya' gini, gue rasa perbincangan macam, "Eh, artinya ini apaan sih?" lalu dijawab dengan, "Bentar.. gue googling dulu," udah bukan sesuatu yang asing lagi.
Gue pribadi punya tingkat ketergantungan pada Google yang cukup gawat. Jadi ketika gue tau film ini bakal keluar dan mata gue langsung tertarik pada desain huruf di posternya yang kok warnanya kaya' pernah lihat dimana gitu kan... So I Google it, and then Google say that this movie is about Google.
Vince Vaughn dan Owen Wilson berperan sebagai Billy McMahon dan Nick Campbell, para salesman jam tangan yang tiba-tiba dipecat secara sepihak oleh pimpinan mereka. Sebab pemecatannya terdengar sepele, karena jaman sekarang orang-orang nggak lagi bergantung pada jam konvensional, dengan handphone atau gadget lainnya di tangan mereka kalau ditanya jam berapa pasti yang dilihat handphone-nya duluan. Gue antara setuju dan nggak setuju. Karena gue masih suka pakai jam tangan kemana-mana kok, tapi iya juga... kadang-kadang jam yang gue pakai itu jam mati, asal matching sama baju yang lagi dipakai aja gitu jadinya, buat aksesoris dan bukan buat fungsinya, kalau mau lihat jam... kan ada handphone.
Singkat cerita, Billy dan Nick mendadak pengangguran. Dengan umur yang nggak muda lagi, cari kerja dirasa semakin susah. Sampai suatu malam, gue nggak ngerti si Billy ini dapet wangsit darimana, dia iseng buka-buka internet, typing a 'Google' as a keyword on Google dan menemukan sebuah lowongan pekerjaan di Google itu sendiri. And nope, of course it won't be that easy... mereka yang notabene adalah angkatan tua yang nggak friendly dengan perkembangan teknologi, struggle sejak langkah pertama interview online via video call. Syarat melamar pekerjaan di Google adalah, mereka harus anak kuliahan, yang masih aktif kuliah. Jadi dengan sablengnya they applied for a random department di salah satu universitas online.
Ketika hari yang ditentukan tiba, berangkatlah mereka ke kantor Google dengan fakta kalau itu bukanlah lowongan kerjaan, hanya lowongan magang dimana mereka harus bersaing dengan ratusan intern lainnya sampai akhirnya dari internship itu akan diambil beberapa orang untuk benar-benar diterima bekerja disana. Pertanyaannya, bagaimana dua orang yang sama sekali buta teknologi bisa bersaing dengan orang-orang lain yang selain rata-rata umurnya sepuluh tahun lebih muda dari mereka dan juga sekaligus manusia-manusia maniak teknologi?
As what Nick Campbell said in the movie,
"We’re looking at some sort of mental “Hunger Games” against a bunch of genius kids for just a handful of jobs."
Salah satu misi dari film ini yang gue tangkap adalah, orang yang bekerja di Google itu nggak melulu orang yang dari lahir udah pakai kacamata dan gedenya pasti jadi tech-savvy geniuses. Di dalam Google ada juga orang biasa-biasa saja, yang berhasil masuk hanya dengan modal nekat dan niat.
I won't give a further spoiler about the movie in this blog... You go watch it by yourself if you really that curious. But I want to pinpoint a few part in this movie that I thing ah-mazingly funny and funny. Yes, funny and funny.
First, the part when they give us a tour in Google building. Gila, gue sampai mupeng-mupeng lihatnya... Puluhan kafe yang semuanya basically giving you a free and unlimited foods, perosotan raksasa di tengah ruangan, sofa nyaman warna-warni yang tersebar dimana-mana, layanan laundry gratis, dan halaman yang luas dimana lo boleh naik sepeda muter-muter disitu. Oh, dan masih ada lapangan volley beach ball di depan kantornya. Yes, you can play volley beach ball in front of your office.
Pikiran bodoh pertama yang terlintas di otak gue adalah; kalau gue kerja di tempat kaya' gitu, gue kapan kerjanya ya?
Bagian kedua favorit gue adalah... That freakin' office have a muggle quidditch field and quidditch tournament for their employees. Awesome.

Overall, The Internship have everything. You can laugh almost for entire part, sementara pesan moralnya juga tersampaikan dengan sangat baik. Mulai dari kerja keras, fair play, optimisme, and the value of real friendship.

I give it 4,5/5 stars! This movie is really worth to watch in your spare time.



The universe may not always play fair, but at least it's got a hell of a sense of humor. 
-- Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City



Wednesday, November 13, 2013

A Father's Day

Mungkin posting ini agak sedikit terlambat, saat menulis ini tanggal 12 November hampir lewat dan gue entah kenapa sekarang baru kepikiran menulis sesuatu tentang hari ayah, hari ini.
To be honest, gue lupa kalau hari ini adalah hari ayah... such a bad daughter am I, huh?  Padahal hari ini gue sempet ngobrol panjang sama papa, momen ngobrol yang jarang-jarang bisa terjadi di tengah-tengah padatnya kerjaan bokap gue.
Dari sedemikian panjangnya obrolan gue dan papa, gue nggak sempet sekedar bilang "Selamat hari ayah ya Papa, thanks for loving me that much... I love you too." Salahkan pada kemampuan mengungkapkan perasaan gue yang di bawah rata-rata, gue bener-bener nggak bisa berkata-kata manis... terutama kalau disuruh ngomong langsung di depan orangnya.

Sedikit perasaan bersalah muncul, cuma sekedar bilang sayang sama papa aja gue nggak bisa, jadi bisanya apa?
Sementara papa, apapun yang gue minta... bisa atau nggak bisa, akhirnya pasti dibisa-bisain. Papa selalu bilang kalau semua yang dilakukannya sekarang semata-mata cuma buat anak-anaknya, gue dan adek gue, keluarga gue bukanlah keluarga kaya raya tapi kami hidup lebih dari sekedar layak. Luar biasa kalau menilai gue dan adek gue bisa hidup enak seperti ini semua karena papa, seseorang yang selalu lebih memilih beli satu baju baru dan satu celana baru pas lebaran biar sisa uangnya bisa untuk anak-anaknya beli baju berlusin-lusin, sesuatu yang sebenernya nggak gue butuhkan. Tapi papa begitu cuma supaya menyenangkan anak-anaknya.
Papa adalah sosok ayah tukang marah-marah, yang selalu ngomel panjang lebar setiap anak-anaknya bikin salah. Papa juga sosok ayah yang selalu minta maaf duluan kalau habis marah-sama sama kita. Papa adalah orang yang rajin mengingatkan anak-anaknya supaya rajin berdoa, buat dia dan buat diri kita sendiri. Papa adalah laki-laki hebat yang serba bisa mulai dari benerin kabel, main musik, bikinin gue rumah barbie, sampai bikinin makanan favorit buat anak-anaknya. Papa adalah orang yang nggak pernah malu bertanya pada anak-anaknya. Papa juga orang yang nggak pernah berhenti membanggakan anak-anaknya seolah-olah gue dan adek gue adalah anak paling baik sedunia. Papa adalah orang terkuat di dunia, yang mengajarkan banyak hal pada gue tentang mengalah, ikhlas, pasrah, dan tetap semangat. Papa adalah sosok yang selalu mengingatkan gue dan adik gue untuk saling menyayangi, "Kalian kan adik-kakak cuma berdua, kalau kalian nggak menghargai satu sama lain... siapa lagi yang kalian punya nanti?" begitu katanya. Papa adalah orang yang ngotot mengantarkan anak-anaknya ke gerbang kesuksesan, harus lebih sukses dari dia, supaya nanti hidupnya tetap senang seperti ini bahkan kalau bisa lebih senang lagi. Papa adalah orang pertama yang cemburu kalau gue dekat dengan laki-laki baru, apalagi kalau sampai pacaran... maklum anak gadisnya cuma satu, mungkin takut tempatnya sebagai laki-laki paling ganteng di hidup gue tergeser. Tenang aja Pa... Papa tetep paling ganteng, bahkan dengan rambut yang mulai memutih, Papa tetep yang paling ganteng. Papa adalah orangtua terbaik, yang mengarungi gejolak hidup bersama anak-anaknya, dari susah lalu senang lalu susah lalu senang lagi. Papa adalah bagian besar dari harga diri gue, seseorang yang gue banggakan dan gue cinta tanpa batas.

Makasih ya Pa... for being such a great dad with such a big heart. You're the one who brought me into this life, you're the one who raise me to see this life, you're the one encourage me to live this life.
Maaf ya Pa... kalau Teteh belum bisa membalas semua yang Papa lakukan buat Teteh, dan nggak akan pernah bisa. But I'll do everything, everything to at least makes you smile, karena Papa memang paling ganteng kalau lagi senyum.

And Dad, I love you...


Happy father's day to all great dad and dad-to-be in the world!

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Life Guide(s)





1. Do not kill yourself. Killing yourself is very messy and your mother will cry over you. It is not beautiful or brave, and even if it was, you will not be around to see that.
2. Washing your hair is going to be a chore. But you should do it anyway. Because you will feel better about yourself.
3. Get up late. Have a lay in. Sleep past your alarm. You have a very long life ahead of you and for now you should appreciate the cold side of your pillow.
4. He is going to break your heart but he’s just another male human who finds it hard to deal with Mondays, too. So in a month you’ll wake up and you won’t even remember that little scar on his knuckle you kissed.
5. Don’t spend hours looking up what your name means on google. Your name is your name and you should go out there and do heroic and good deeds and give your name your own meaning.
6. Don’t fight your demons. Your demons are here to teach you lessons. Sit down with your demons and have a drink and a chat and learn their names and talk about the burns on their fingers and scratches on their ankles. Some of them are very nice.
7. Music is good for your soul. Rap music will energise you and boost your ego and pop music will cheer you up. Indie music will make you think and emotional songs will make you cry and think about that boy again. It’s healthy.
8. Victim complexes are not attractive. Boys and girls will not date you because you are sad. They are not going to date you and kiss your aching bones and cure you of your dragging depression. Wake up. Take a bath. Do your hair. Be attractive.
9. Sadness is not poetic. Depression is not beautiful. Laying in bed all day and eating too much is lazy and disgusting and it is not tragic or pretty. Get up. Go outside. Let the sun warm your bones. Live.
10. If it makes you happy, buy twenty of it. Dedicate your life to it. Print it on tv shirts and collect things and draw art of it. Do not care what people think. They are the unhappy people you need to avoid. The abuse they will hurl at you is painless compared to how sad they are. Pity them. Remain happy.
11. You are allowed to be angry. But the world is not working against you. The flowers do not bloom for you and when your mother shouts ask her if she is okay instead of thinking she hates you. She never will. The world walks beside you and is silent. It does not trip you up or carry you.
12. Day and night cycles are natural. Humans only sleep at night because we used to avoid predators in the dark because of our poor eyesight. Stay awake until 5am watching bad reality shows. Wake up at 7pm and have breakfast.
13. Eat when you are hungry. Being bored does not constitute a chocolate bar. Sleep with you are tired. Do not mindlessly obey the sleep at night rule. If you are not tired, do not sleep.
Lapfoxs  (via topkun)

--- So I get this from tumblr, something which I think deserve a forever reblogging from everyone. I'm not sure who is the original writer of it, but whoever you are Mister or Miss, you are sure  one of the coolest person on planet earth. I just copy and paste it as it is straight from my tumblr dash, just because I think it is obvious that I must share these kind of positive attitude towards ourselves with everyone.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

November. Already.

So, hello...
How's your halloween, how's your first day in November? Mind is in an uber chaos.
Cerita singkatnya adalah gue untuk kesekian kalinya kembali bermasalah dengan kartu ATM. Mulai dari kehilangan kartu ATM di taksi, kartu ATM ketelen di mesinnya, dan uang yang terdebet di rekening tapi nggak keluar wujudnya. Kali ini gue kembali mengalami masalah yang terakhir, kembali lagi uang gue terdebet dan tiba-tiba hilang pas gue mau narik dari ATM. Hasilnya? Miskin mendadak sodara-sodara, to the point that I have to borrow some cash from my friend so I can eat... minimal sampai uang gue selesai diproses di bank dan kembali. Jadi begitulah kisah sendu gue di awal bulan ini.

But let's just get over it -- I'm so used with my own clumsiness that having problems because of it is not a big matter anymore for me -- kembali ke November... Nggak berasa ya mendadak udah tinggal dua bulan lagi menjelang 2014, cepat sekali waktu berlalu.
I have so many things to share here this month. If only I can success on managing my time... Menulis blog di sela-sela menyelesaikan skripsi, atau kebalik ya, menyelesaikan skripsi di tengah-tengah menulis blog. Apapun itu, setelah bulan lalu sukses ngeblog dengan benar, it give me a great pleasure so I really want to do so again this month.

Oh... and by the way, sebelum post ini harusnya ada satu scheduled post yang semestinya udah muncul di blog beberapa hari yang lalu tapi ternyata ga muncul-muncul. My bad actually, seharusnya tanggal di schedule nya adalah 29 Oktober 2013, tapi yang gue tulis adalah 29 Oktober 20...... 14. :|
Me and my stupid brain.

So I'll just recap that post with this one, eventually I have written a long post already but since I decide to combine it, then I'm gonna make it shorter.
It is supposed to be a product review, products that I've been enjoyed using in October. I consider to make it a monthly post but then I realize it is not a very good idea... because I'm a very loyal customer, even towards the random products that I usually just buy in a common super market or drug store, if I like it means I'll keep using it for a very very long time until I finally find a better one.
Then here a little sneak peak of a new things I just bought last month and I love them!


First thing in the first box is my galaxy tab and the sensational The Simpsons Tapped Out, at least I do think it is sensational, because I'm such a forever big fan of The Simpsons. Tapped Out is actually a free game in the Google play store, I still have no idea why they even make it free, such a very great game with a super smooth graphic. I am so love the halloween season in Tapped Out this year, so many new and bizarre characters pop out here and there, my favorite one is the resurrection of Maude -- Ned Flanders' deceased wife -- who suddenly come to life as a ghost to pay her revenge to Homer. Also I love the scary ambiance on this special halloween upgrade, like everytime you open the game you will hear a super spooky shriek, I did shocked for two or three times a day because of it.
The second box is my skin savior... those are POND's Flawless White Series, night and day cream. I have a problematic skin, the type of skin that I should't forget to clean every night and morning because if I skip it even for once, my skin will drastically change from clean and nice into it's worst condition. So I really put my money in my skin, I bought the creams for around IDR 90.000 each if I'm not mistaken, which is I consider as expensive. But seeing the effect of that creams in my skin, no complain, I'm a happy customer.
The third thing is Puteri Natural Skin Whitening Complex Hand & Body Lotion. No, not that I want to whitening my skin or what... I just love how it nourish my body skin, not like another lotion I've used, this one didn't feel sticky at all, in fact it feels very moisturizing. Also the prize is kinda cheap, for 200ml bottle you only need to pay IDR 15.000, just great!
In the fourth box is my current favorite snack, Astor Skinny Roll. Delicious!
The thing in the fifth box is my obsession, red lipstick! This one is Pixy Rouge Tango Lasting Matte Lipstick which is pretieeeeeee~ Bought it for IDR 36.000, I think it is consider as cheap for a very good lipstick, its all worth the buy.
The giant Oreo in the sixth box? Of course it is not a real cookies, it is just a super cool lunch box in Oreo's shape, I got it after buy a special Oreo's package contain three packs of Oreo in different flavor for IDR 18.000 at Carefour. I haven't finish eat the Oreos, but I like the lunch box very much! :p
Last box is my scented candle, Candle-lite Juicy Black Cherries. Not my favorite scents but it didn't smell bad too. Bought it for IDR 110.000 at Ace Hardware.

So that's it, my recent favorites! I hope it will help you, just in case you wonder what to buy next time you go to super market or any store, or even if you confuse about what to download in Google play store. :D

Sunday, October 27, 2013


"…the thing about literature and music. You use it as a way of defining yourself. You use it as an extension of your character. Somebody else’s words writing your thoughts. And I think everybody who relates to music is kind of isolated. It’s lonely. Everyone who uses the creative side of their brain is that much removed from reality. They are looking for answers wherever they can find them."
-- Laura Marling

Thursday, October 24, 2013

We all have chapters we would rather keep unpublished...

A 4o'clock in the Morning Post

Good morning-good morning-good morning!!
(...Or is it still too early to call this time a morning?) But whatever, I just woke up from a really short sleep. Gue mungkin baru tidur kira-kira dua setengah jam yang lalu, kemudian kebangun dengan uring-uringan karena ada nomer ga dikenal yang telepon... dan salah sambung. Pfffft.

Actually, as usual, I have no idea what to write... I just feel this urgent need to write something whatsoever. But I have one and two things to tell, a little update about my life maybe?

The first thing to report is: #IdeaSwap project is finally wrapped uuuuup!! Yeiiiy!!!! So it means, the new project will coming to this blog! Wait, I think I use too many exclamation mark in one sentence already. I'm excited, what can I do then?
Just as the previous project, the coming up project is also a collaboration with Miss janetsaid.wordpress.com -- hit the link and follow her blog too! The tag of next project will be #MyFave5, the rules are clear enough... Me and Janet already swapped the topics, all we have to do next is choose our five favorite stuff based on the topic and write it. Easy but challenging enough for me, because choosing five from many are difficult, no? Buuut... before we start the tag, we also have some sort of warming up post to do, we have to post a 50 facts about me first before start doing a real tag.
The aim of this project are not so different from the previous project, to free us from writing block and to stay productive of course, but I think especially for this project, not only it will give us so much fun when we write but also we really hope our choice can give you a good information too.
The second thing to report, hmm, I don't really have anything important too share actually... But hey, I'm changing my blog look again, how you like it or hate it? It is little bit flowery this time, I just feel in the mood for flower lately... don't ask me what another kind of syndrome is this, after brown madness now I suddenly got attacked by an obsession against anything vintage with some floral in it.
The third thing to report? Nothing... Recently my life are just going so-so. Oh, but I remember one thing I want to tell here in blog. This few days back I've been active again on Tumblr, so don't forget to check my tumblr too here, I do online a lot there... every day if not every hour. :p

So, that's all I can tell you right now. I have to hurry up and do my subuh prayer before I running out of time then go back to sleep.
Again -- its 5o'clock now -- good morning! 

Sunday, October 20, 2013

#IdeaSwap: For the Past and the Future

"The past has been there all along, reminding us: This time--maybe, hopefully, against all odds, we will get it right."
--Leslie T. Chang
Don't you think sometimes it scary how few things can change in a speed of light? I do. When I was a kid, a big bad world always overawe me. But as I'm getting older, the reality hurts, the world is indeed big and indeed bad.
I never know that my life will be like this, that I will write something about past and future in the middle of night whilst listening to Five For Fighting and brood over myself, what I have became and what I will become. I change a lot, even in this past three months, I've already transformed into a different person from what I used to be. If in a three months someone can change that much, what will happen in three years then?

All I know about past and future is that you can't live in it at the same time, for the time will shut one of them for you. You have to choose... being steady about your perfect past and live your present in a comfort zone or brave your present self to welcome an unknown future.

My past is a combination of a really beautiful memories and an inclement nightmare that I always thankful for, because it is what makes me Me today.
My present is currently... in a mess. As cliché as it may sound, for me everyday supposed to be a new day. Yet my recent situation is somehow messy, I practically fail to follow my own routine -- something like I have to go to sleep at this hour, I have to wake up at this hour, I have to take a bath at this hour -- and just do whatever I want. For some people maybe it sounds pretty fun, to be able to do whatever you want. But not for me, I might be a little indifferent but I hate being in the midst of chaos. At least I like living uprightly... with an exact schedule everyday, that I failed to do. Sigh.
My future is not yet known, so do your future. But I intend to make it as great as I can, for now all I can do is dreaming and working for it.

For the past and the future, the best choice is to live your present to the fullest that it means you embracing your past as a part of yourself and hailing to the future as it is also will become a part of yourself. Live it people, live it...

Saturday, October 19, 2013

#IdeaSwap: Autumn

From all the idea swap topic, this probably one of the most hard title to write. I really wish I can just simply post a few photos as fall season is coming up, but no... the country where I live only have two seasons: First, the season when the sun is feels crazily hot. Second, the season when the sun is feels crazily hot too but thank God there will be rain for about two or three days once.
So let's just forget about the beautiful autumn pictures where many people probably busy taking photos when they go pumpkin picking or apple picking, it's literally summer for every each day in a year here... I'm sooo jealous of everyone live in four seasons country. Sob.

Well, autumn...
I am not really an autumn person. If I have to choose what's my favorite season is, it will be summer... and spring. But there's one thing that I love about autumn, the color.
Most people I know will pick autumn as their favorite season. Even so I'm not a big autumn fan, I think I know and understand the reasons. Autumn is when the temperature is going chill after a hot summer but not as freezing as winter, and also autumn is super prettieeeeeee, it seems like the earth is creating the most beautiful scenery as a grand finale before winter and since the season will start over again when spring is coming, a big-epic-beautiful-grand finale autumn is.

I love how the seasons can be compared with the circle of life, how each season picturing a different part of life itself.
As for me, I like to analyze the connection of some people's favorite picks with their personality or their philosophy of life. I tell you my secret, that's how I judge you. You like autumn? Then I will say that you're some sort of romantic person. You like winter? Probably you're the melancholic one.
But it's just me, it can be right or wrong...

Whatever the season is, autumn in half part of the world and soon it's going to rain a lot in my part of the world. I really wish all of us will have a new and exciting life to tell and to be thankful for.
Enjoy autumn! And don't forget your umbrella too!! 

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Brown Madness


I just waken up by a very weird dream. A dream about me and unknown garden full of flowers, but the colors of my dream are all black, white... and brown. I mean, a black and white dream maybe not that strange but a dream in brown, like, really? Is it some kind of sign that I'm craving for chocolate? No?
But inspired by that dream, and also because I can't go back to sleep so I make a few change for this blog. As you can see, my blog now look all brown. I do realize that it is not as fancy as my previous theme, but I love this one more.
I'm a vintage girl at heart. But not that kind of classic-vintage type. How to put it in an easy term to understand, hmm... I love the color of instagram's filter! You know, the black and the white and the brown but with a touch of shocking pink or super bright red in it.

Oh, and whilst I'm writing this post... I realize another thing, it is not only my blog that now all brown. A few weeks ago I also change my path, twitter, and tumblr theme into brown, also all my social media photos are slightly have a brownie in it. What the... What's with me and my sudden addiction of brown lately? Weird that I just realized it now.

And talking about favorite color, just a random though that popped in my head; is there any research that state about favorite color and its connection with human psychologist condition?

Tuesday, October 15, 2013



When something bothered me, I didn't talk to anyone about it. I thought it all over by myself, come to a conclusion, and took action alone. Not that I really felt lonely. I thought that's just the way things are. Human beings, in the final analysis, have to survive on their own.
--Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart



Sunday, October 13, 2013

#IdeaSwap: Once Upon A Dream

Dari banyak sekali cerita romantis yang pernah gue tau, gue selalu suka ketika muncul kalimat "I feel like I already know you...", satu pertanyaan yang belum sempat gue tanyakan ke siapapun sampai sekarang, memang iya perasaan I feel like I already know you itu ada?
Every girl have her own prince charming... A perfect guy for her, the one that someday will be a father for her child.
For once and twice, I almost felt that I already met that person. Mungkin gue yang terlalu tinggi berandai-andai, mungkin juga gue cuma sekedar mencari pembenaran dari teori gue sendiri... but in that once and twice time there were nothing that felt like I feel like I already know you. Yang ada cuma, I know you well enough already and that what makes me sure about us. Keyakinan yang ternyata salah.

But I do have a dream about him... When we're sitting under the milkyway and talking about secret just between us two.

So when one day, I finally met him...

...Can I say to people about, I feel like I already know him?
...And tell him that, I love you once upon a dream?

I know you
I walked with you once upon a dream
I know you
The gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam
Yes, I know it's true that vision are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I know what you'll do
You'll love me at once
The way you did once upon a dream...
--Princess Aurora, Sleeping Beauty

Monday, October 7, 2013

Music Blurb: Miley Cyrus, Panic! At The Disco, Block B, Glee Cast, All Time Low, Busker Busker, Coldplay, Lorde

As I ever promised, I will try to make time for doing a review in my blog... and here it is!
A few days ago I already reviewed the latest K-Drama that I have watched. Now I'm going to review some freshly downloaded albums. Like I said before, compare with watching movie and reading a book, I'm listening to music a lot more... So you can expect this kind of music blurb post will pop here more often too.

The musics that I download are not always the new release album or song, sometimes I download an old records too... since I basically love to hear to everything, from any era.
Let's start, shall we?

Miley Cyrus, Bangerz
Tracklist: Adore You | We Can't Stop | SMS (Bangerz) | 4x4 | My Darlin' | Wrecking Ball | Love Money Party | #getitright | Drive | Fu | Do My Thang | Maybe You're Right | Someone Else | Rooting For My Baby | On My Own | Hands In The Air

This girl is definitely phenomenal... and I love her music as much as I hate her scandals. Been listen to her since Hannah Montana era until now, and never dislike her songs. This album feel a lot like her official announcement about her metamorphosis. People, don't you think Miley Cyrus will be going to be as controversial as Spears and Gaga?

My fave: Wrecking Ball, #getitright, Do My Thang, Someone Else, Rooting For My Baby --- ☆ 4/5


Panic! At The Disco, Too Weird To Live, Too Rare To Die!
Tracklist: This Is Gospel | Miss Jackson (Feat. Lolo) | Vegas Light | Girl That You Love | Nicotine | Girls/Girls/Boys | Casual Affair | Far Too Young To Die | Collar Full | The End of All Things

Well, Panic! At The Disco ladies and gentleman... as brilliant as always. Although I find this album is a little bit boring for me, but they still fulfill my expectation. I also always fascinated by how they always have a perfect title for their albums, they indeed are too weird to live but too rare to die.

My fave: This Is Gospel, Girls/Girls/Boys, Far Too Young To Die, Collar Full --- ☆ 3,5/5


Block B, Very Good
Tracklist: Very Good | 빛이 되어줘 | 언제 어디서 무엇을 어떻게 (Park Kyung solo Feat. Urban Zakapa's Jo Hyunah) | Nice Day | Very Good (Inst.)

It's a decent album. I can't really judge because this is a mini album and I'm not exactly a big fan of Block B. But I do able to enjoy their songs in this album, especially Park Kyung's solo... he sounds amazing.

My fave: 언제 어디서 무엇을 어떻게 --- ☆ 1,5/5


Glee Cast, Glee Sings The Beatles
Tracklist: Imagine | Yesterday | Help | Blackbird | Something | A Hard Day's Night | Hello, Goodbye | Get Back | Here Comes the Sun | Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club | All You Need Is Love | Silly Love Song | Hey Jude | Let It Be | You've Got To Hide Your Love Away | In My Life | I Saw Her Standing There | I Want To Hold Your Hand | Got To Get You Into My Life | Drive My Car

This album is too great to missed. I never can't get enough The Beatles, and a little dose of Glee everyday will never hurt. My favorite Glee's album so far!

My fave: Yesterday, Blackbird, All You Need Is Love, Silly Love Song, Hey Jude, In My Life, I Want To Hold Your Hand --- ☆ 5/5


All Time Low, Dirty Work
Tracklist: Do You Want Me (Dead?) | I Feel Like Dancin' | Forget About It | Guts | Time-bomb | Just the Way I'm Not | Under a Paper Moon | Return the Favor | No Idea | A Daydream Away | That Girl | Heroes | Get Down On Your Knees and Tell Me You Love Me | My Only One | Merry Christmas, Kiss My Ass | Bad Enough For You

Released in 2011 and I just re-downloaded it because I was accidentally deleted mine a few weeks ago. Even this is a second time for me to sorting which songs are my favorite of all... It is still hard to choose. A really must-listened-to!

My fave: Guts, Time-bomb, Just the Way I'm Not, No Idea, A Daydream Away, That Girl --- ☆ 5/5


Busker Busker, 버스커 버스커 2집
Tracklist: 가을밤 | 잘할 걸 | 사랑은 타이밍 | 처음엔 사랑이란게 | 시원한 여자 | 그대 입술이 (With Putput's Cha Jiyeon) | 줄리엣 |  아름다운 나이 | 밤

Compare with their first album, I personally like the second album more. The overall feel of vol. 2 is still very Busker Busker, the reason why I love them but also the reason why I think they're get little boring. But the fact that this album is great enough to even compete with so many Korean idol group's comeback title song and win is proving that they're really is something.

My fave: 사랑은 타이밍, 시원한 여자, 그대 입술이, 줄리엣 --- ☆ 2/5


Coldplay, Coldplay Live 2012
Tracklist: Mylo Xyloto | Hurts Like Heaven | In My Place | Major Minus | Yellow | God Put A Smile Upon Your Face | Princess Of China | Up In Flames | Viva La Vida | Charlie Brown | Paradise | Us Against The World | Clocks | Fix You | Every Teardrop Is A Waterfall

I downloaded this album for an obvious sad reason: I can't afford to go to their live concert so I listen to their live album. And this album is... ah-ma-zing! All the scream, all the fun, all the goosebumps are perfectly captured. For all the Coldplay fans out there, go buy this album now if you haven't!

My fave: Yellow, Up In Flames, Viva La Vida, Fix You, Every Teardrops Is A Waterfall --- ☆ 5/5


Lorde, Pure Heroine
Tracklist: Tennis Court | 400 Lux | Royals | Ribs | Buzzcut Season | Team | Glory and Gore | Still Sane | White Teeth Teens | A World Alone

Like, Adele who? Lorde is the next big thing. For me, it give the same taste as when I listening to Lana Del Rey, but Lorde sounds more fresh, most of the song have a slow to medium tempo but feels very energizing... I guess that's my best way to describe her music in word. Yet I really do expect something more great come up from her in the future.

My fave: Royals, Team, White Teeth Teens, A World Alone --- ☆ 1,5/5

Sunday, October 6, 2013


A well-composed book is a magic carpet on which we are wafted to a world that we cannot enter in any other way. --Caroline Gordon

Friday, October 4, 2013

#IdeaSwap: The Apple Of My Eyes

"Waktu kamu lahir, semua orang nungguin kamu... Tapi ga ada yang lebih deg-degan dari Papa..."
Aku menggeser-geser trackpad Blackberry ku, sepinya malam ini, sedang apa ya anak-anakku disana? Kembali rasa tidak enak yang berlebihan membuncah memenuhi dadaku, sakitnya sampai ke ulu hati. Untuk orang seumurku yang sudah menginjak kepala lima ini menggunakan kata galau sepertinya tidak lagi pantas. Tapi harus kusebut apa lagi rasa rindu dan sepi yang seperti ini, kecuali rasa itu sedikit tercemar oleh rasa kecewa, malu, dan bersalah yang terus-terusan menghantuiku.
Kembali aku memandang kosong ponselku, melihat foto-foto anak-anakku yang kuambil diam-diam dari facebook dan twitter mereka. 
Satu hal yang aku syukuri, walaupun jauh tapi mereka terlihat baik-baik saja dan juga bahagia.

Putri sulungku, masih menyelesaikan kuliahnya di Semarang. Aku jadi teringat percakapanku dengannya beberapa hari yang lalu,


"Skripsi kamu gimana Teh?"

"Lancar Pa, doain aja ya selesai secepatnya...,"

Percakapan kemudian berlanjut, putriku menjelaskan serentetan isi skripsinya yang sebenarnya sama sekali tidak kumengerti apa maksudnya.
Terimakasih Tuhan, Kau memberikan putriku kecerdasan yang berkali-kali lipat dibanding denganku, walaupun pada akhirnya hanya membuatku bingung karena tidak mengerti apa yang dia bicarakan.

Putra bungsuku, tinggal dengan mantan istriku di Jakarta, sekarang menginjak kelas sembilan. Sebentar lagi akan masuk SMA, padahal rasanya baru kemarin aku membelikan seragam putih-merah pertamanya.

"Pa, Adek mau beli game terbaru dong... Boleh?"

"Boleh, berapa harganya? Nanti Papa kirim uangnya ke Mama...,"

Kembali anakku membicarakan hal yang tidak kumengerti, kali ini putraku menjelaskan panjang lebar tentang game terbaru yang ingin dibelinya, lengkap dengan embel-embel janji kalau bermain game tidak akan menggangu jam belajarnya.

Terimakasih lagi Tuhan, Kau memberiku putra yang selalu berusaha memberiku ketenangan, walaupun nantinya pasti aku akan menerima laporan kalau dia lupa mengerjakan PR nya karena keasyikan bermain game.

Maafkan Papa ya Nak...
Cuma ini yang saat ini bisa Papa lakukan dan berikan untuk kalian. Papa tidak bisa memberikan waktu Papa untuk kalian, jadi kalau Papa mengirimkan sedikit uang berlebih pada kalian, jadikan itu hiburan untuk menggantikan kehadiran Papa yang tidak bisa menemani kalian. Papa disini baik-baik saja, doakan Papa selalu sehat ya... Doakan juga Papa selalu dipermudah rejekinya, jadi nanti kita bisa hidup dengan tenang walaupun Papa sudah pensiun bekerja.
Maafkan Papa ya Nak...
Papa ini mungkin adalah contoh bapak yang gagal. Yang bahkan tidak bisa mempertahankan rumah tangganya, yang menyebabkan kalian harus mengalami perceraian yang menyakitkan.

Tapi jangan benci Papa karena hal itu, kalian kan tahu kalau selain kalian, Papa tidak punya siapa-siapa lagi.

Karena buat Papa, hanya kalianlah satu-satunya semangat Papa... yang membuat Papa bersabar menghadapi cobaan bertubi-tubi yang datang silih berganti dalam hidup kita.

Semua yang Papa lakukan, untuk siapa lagi kalau bukan untuk Teteh dan Adek?

Tahu kan, Papa sayang sekali sama kalian...


-----

Yes, it was me talked about my dad's feelings. No, he never told me anything about that.
Because people, sometimes silent is the loudest thing if you want to try to hear a little bit deeper. Even so my dad never describe what's his feeling like, I know him so well that I don't even need him to tell me everything to know about it.

I'm a family girl at heart... I love my dad, I love my mom, I love my brother.
Family can annoy you, smother you, suffocate you until you feel like dying... but I'll take it anytime, death by love can't be that bad.

And the apple of my eyes? They are the apple of my eyes.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Another new month is finally here. I can't believe how fast is September actually over... I'm not even yet say wake me up when September ends, and it was already ended. Now that thinking about last month, I realize that I don't really do things at all, last month just skip a beat and nothings change.
I do hope I can finish something in this month and also in many next months coming up. Honestly it's getting tiresome to always starting something but in fact never able to finish it.

My October wish is just simply to bring this month to the fullest. So let's hope and work something for a better October!! ❤





Friday, September 27, 2013

"I Hear Your Voice" : A drama of people who can't forget

Pada awalnya, gue memutuskan buat nonton drama ini karena iseng-iseng cari tontonan doang... But turns out I found this television drama was beyond great that I couldn't stop myself from watching it until the end.
Gue sendiri pun agak-agak kaget dengan respon diri gue sama drama ini, karena pada dasarnya gue bukan penggemar cerita jenis ini... tapi sekarang rasanya gue kembali harus mengingatkan diri sendiri untuk ga menilai sesuatu begitu aja tanpa cari tau lebih lanjut terlebih dulu.


I Hear Your Voice atau I Can Hear Your Voice -- drama Korea memang rata-rata punya judul Inggris yang beraneka ragam, so just use whichever you like -- judul aslinya adalah 너의 목소리가 들려; Neoui Moksoriga Deulryeo adalah drama bikinan Park Hyerun kedua yang gue suka, kedua setelah satu yang lain adalah Dream High.

Overall rate ☆  5/5 stars!

Dasar cerita di drama ini adalah Courtroom drama, yang artinya dominasi ceritanya adalah tentang hukum dan sejenisnya. Salah satu alasan kenapa gue di awal ga melirik drama ini sama sekali...
Gue mulai berubah pikiran ketika sadar kalau pemeran utama di drama ini adalah pria super ganteng dan ekstra charming berjudul Lee Jongsuk. Pada ga tau Lee Jongsuk? Gih sana cepet-cepet digoogle sebelum ntar nyesel karena telat naksir. :p
Jadi akhirnya cuma dengan berdasar niatan pengen ngeliat Lee Jongsuk gue pun mencoba nonton drama ini. Lalu yang terjadi adalah... I got hooked by the story since the first episode!

This drama was actually not a pure courtroom drama kind of, instead there're a lot of romantic-comedy feel in the story, and the best of all is the writer also put an element of fantasy in the character... Oh, and also have a very satisfying ending.

Kenapa gue bilang drama ini bercerita tentang orang-orang yang menolak lupa? Karena memang semua awal ceritanya berawal dari dua orang yang bersumpah akan menuntut balas... Yang satu menuntut untuk balas dendam dan yang satu menuntut mau balas budi.

Monday, September 23, 2013

Ceritanya, review suka-suka...

Sekian lama ga pernah menulis review apapun lagi di blog -- terakhir gue menulis review adalah di blog sebelumnya yang sekarang udah ga aktif... lama ya... -- akhirnya gue memutuskan untuk kembali menulis review.
Awalnya ga ada rencana menulis post jenis ini di blog lagi, karena gue sadar diri kalau pengetahuan film, buku, dan musik gue terlalu terkotak buat dikatakan layak jadi reviewer. Terlebih lagi akhir-akhir ini asupan film yang ditonton sedikit sekali, gue lebih banyak nonton serial dan sinetron, oh... dan kartun di TV. Begitu juga dengan buku, buku-buku yang akhir-akhir ini dibeli cuma tertumpuk rapi tanpa sempat dibaca. Sampai musik juga begitu, padahal temen-temen gue bilang gue ini macam Shazam berjalan, sayang sekian banyak album yang belakangan ini didownload rata-rata baru didengerin setengahnya aja. Tapi naluri "gatel" pengen bagi-bagi spoiler lama-lama ga kebendung juga, jadi mengesampingkan kualitas dan kemampuan ngereview gue yang jauh dari pantas, mari kita sebut saja ini review suka-suka.

Sebelumnya, let me classify jenis-jenis apa saja yang masuk dalam jajaran film, buku, dan musik favorit gue...
Dalam hal menonton film, atau pada dasarnya dalam hal memilih apa saja yang mau ditonton, gue ini adalah salah satu jenis yang paling pilih-pilih, bisa dibilang lebih parah daripada milih-milih makanan malah. Kalau disuruh nentuin genre favorit, pilihan gue cuma; Reality drama, absurd romance, satirize comedy, speculative fiction, dan fantasy-tale. Iya, itu semuanya genre bikinan gue sendiri... dan iya, gue ga mau nonton apa-apa yang jenisnya diluar itu kalau ga pake acara dipaksa dulu. Gara-gara suka bikin genre sendiri dan ogah-ogahan gitu kali ya jadi cakupan tontonan gue segitu-segitu aja.
Sementara genre buku gue agak sedikit lebih luas. Yet my favorite genre is; Young-adult/adult fiction, I enjoy reading that kind of story sooo-so-so much. Tapi pada dasarnya gue mau membaca apa aja, masalah gue adalah gue suka males beli buku yang sampulnya kurang menarik. I do judge a book by its cover, semata-mata karena kecepatan membaca gue yang agak diatas rata-rata jadi buku-buku itu cuma dibaca sebentar lalu ditumpuk di rak, ditambah lagi gue adalah tipe orang yang beli buku - disimpen - dibaca - selesai - disimpen lagi - sekian, cuma sedikit buku yang sampai kusut saking sering dibaca berulang-ulang. Jadi selain untuk dibaca, buat gue buku punya esensi untuk dikoleksi dan dipajang, maka dari itu gue lebih suka beli buku yang cantik dan indah, sisanya gue lebih milih pinjem-pinjeman sama temen.
Kalau untuk musik, I listen to almost everything... Dengerin dulu, masalah suka atau ga itu belakangan. Tapi secara keseluruhan playlist gue rata-rata dipenuhi oleh genre macam; Pop, rock, acoustic, powerpop, dan contemporary R&B. Intinya gue mendengarkan musik yang cenderung easy on ear, terutama karena buat gue musik adalah media buat lari dari kenyataan nomer dua setelah menulis, that's why I listen to many music.

I also will do other random review if I can, maybe product review and anything...

Jadi begitulah, kira-kira review yang bakal gue tulis ga akan jauh-jauh dari hal-hal di atas... Judulnya aja review suka-suka kan ya, so I'll just review stuff that I like in a way that I like too. :)

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

#IdeaSwap: Fix You


This is probably one of the best song I've ever heard in my life, ever. A beautiful song with a simple lyrics that present so many meaning behind it.
I read somewhere that Chris Martin wrote this song for Gwyneth Paltrow after her father died. A short conversation between them in the middle of tears and sadness, he asked her, "What can I do for you? Tell me how can I help...", her answered was, "Just hold me, 'cause you're the only thing that can fix me right now."

Listening to this song, I'm sure that everybody will have their own interpretation about it. Most people I ever asked said that this song are talking about lover. Many of them said this song somehow remind them of someone, a friend or a family who once ever faced a hard time and they were there witnessed everything.   Also a few of them said this song is simply depict their own life, the struggle their been through. And other said that this song have a some sort of impression about the relationship between God and Her people. (Yes, I do refer God as a She not a He, more about this in later post)

As for myself, I can relate to all four perspective above...
This song do remind me about lover. It is just simply portray the sentence "I love you so much", so much that no matter how you feel, in bad or good times... I will never, ever, stop loving you. An unconditional love is the most powerful kind of love. Because I love you that much, I'll always be trying to fix you.
This song do remind me about some people I know in my life. It's remind me about my Dad, who face a hard time during his divorce process. Remind me about my Mom, when she and I used to not talked at all because I blamed her for everything that happened in our family. Remind me about my best friend that seems to face a hard time over and over again. The moment when I realize that their life is hard, as their closest person all I can do is say sorry if I was the one who cause that trouble or if I wasn't I will just lean my shoulder to cry on and my ear to listen to them. Maybe I can't fix them, but I can help by stand next to them and comfort them until they strong enough and fix themselves.
This song do remind me about myself. All the struggle I've been through, a day when I was scream without a sound and cry without a tears, when I was helpless and searched for some friendly face to helped me out of my desperation but find no one. Until the point I realize that my life couldn't be worst than this, it was my lowest point in life and I refuse to go down even lower that that. This song talk a lot about healing a wound, and I did heal my wound.
This song do remind me about God, indeed. The thing about "fix you", She is the one that can do it. Just like the lyrics in this song, I will guide you home and I will try to fix you. Define clearly about how we don't need to be afraid even we ever feel alone in this world, we never will, as long as you believe in God then She will be always with you, always guiding you through this life.

In short, to interpret this song, just put your whole life in summary and that will be your answer.

...Light will guide you home
And Ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you...

Monday, September 16, 2013

#IdeaSwap: 친구

친구, Chingu (n): Friend
Friend (n): People who are aware of how retarded you are and still manage to be seen in public with you. People who make you laugh till you pee your pants. People who cry for you when one of your special item disappear. When you don't have enough money to get an ice cream, they chip in. Knows all of your internet passwords. Who would never make you cry just to be mean.
Best friend (n): A very special people in your life. They are the first people you think about when you make plans. They are the first people you go to when you need someone to talk to. You will phone them up just to talk about nothing, or the most important things in your life. When you’re sad they will try their hardest to cheer you up. They give the best hugs in the world! They are the shoulder to cry on, because you know that they truly care about you. In most cases they would take a bullet for you, coz it would be too painful to watch you get hurt. -- Source: Urban Dictionary


In life there will be a few amazing people you are going to meet.
Without them you realize how meaningless your life gonna be.
Sometimes that people will exhausting you a lot, make you feel suffocated... But in the end you will just let them be, because your love them twice as big as you hate them.
That people are not your mother, but feel closer as it. Neither your sibling, but you argue like a sister. Also not your lover, but you love each other no matter what.
That people you will treasure until the end, you will protect whatever it takes, you will find no one can be the same as they are.
A friend. A very best friend.

This two are my best friend, yes... only two of them. I have a bunch of friends, but only a two of them that I will turn into in the end.
We don't really share anything common, if that is we actually have a lot, an awful lot of different things between each other. But weirdly that is what makes us one and the same.


Yes, I know they look overly retarded. Playing cute, huh? But that's just us, no matter how ridiculous it might be...

....I love being with them and just simply being us.

#IdeaSwap: "How old is my soul?"

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. --Helen Keller
A famous said state that never judge a person by his age, judge by how many hard times he's been survived... dan gue kurang lebih setuju dengan pernyataan itu. But the big question here adalah how can you tell a soul that already survived and a soul that only think they survive but the fact they're not.

From my personal point of view, cara termudah untuk menilai, sekedar menilai aja ya bukan mengetahui benar atau salahnya, adalah dengan melihat apakah orang yang bersangkutan udah bisa menerima apa yang terjadi sama dia dengan diam, hidup bahagia dalam musibahnya, and stop sweating the small stuff yang berhubungan dengan itu.

Contohnya ketika seseorang putus cinta, jangan ngaku-ngaku udah move on kalau ujung-ujungnya lo masih suka sirik dan mendadak jadi orang paling critical ketika ngeliat sesuatu yang ada hubungannya dengan kejadian putus cinta lo. Baru putus sama anak band? Terus begitu ada cowok bawa-bawa gitar lewat, langsung deh sewot macem-macem. Keliatannya sih emang iya lo ga galau, keliatannya udah move on, tapi kenyataannya apa... Lo diam-diam masih merasa hal itu sulit buat lo, cukup sulit sampai lo harus komentar demi meyakinkan diri lo sendiri itu ga penting lagi. Karena ketika lo pada kenyataannya udah berhasil get over it, dalam contoh ini get over your ex, misal ada sesuatu yang mengingatkan lo sama dia lo bakal dengan otomatis diam, bukan malah marah-marah. Katanya udah move on, kok masih bisa marah aja? Belum ikhlas itu sih namanya. ;p
Ya itu sih cuma contoh aja ya, jangan ngomel kalau kesindir...

The point is, kedewasaan itu ga bisa diukur dengan umur. Tua belum berarti dewasa, buktinya masih banyak orang dewasa yang pola pikirnya kekanak-kanakan. In reverse, malah banyak anak-anak yang dewasa sebelum waktunya. Mungkin, karena otak mereka udah kemasukan informasi yang ga layak sebelum waktunya, atau mungkin mereka memang begitu karena beban hidup mereka yang membentuk mereka menjadi seperti itu.

Contohnya... Banyak anak-anak yang terpaksa harus cari uang sendiri, karena orangtua mereka bukan termasuk orang yang mampu. Jadi mereka harus ikut banting tulang hanya demi bisa makan sehari-hari. Pikiran mereka yang harusnya baru diisi dengan belajar dan bersosialisasi udah terpaksa dipakai buat cari akal harus kerja apa, harus gimana biar dapet duit buat makan, dan segudang pikiran berat lainnya. Ditambah kalau orangtua dan lingkungan mereka kurang mendidik, jadinya apa? Anak-anak yang keberatan beban hidup, yang lalu dewasa sebelum waktunya.

Tapi kan dewasa itu baik? Semua yang dipaksakan itu biasanya ga bagus, percaya deh... Karena dewasa pun punya tingkatannya masing-masing.
Kalau umur lo 16 tahun, dewasalah layaknya umur 16 tahun. Mungkin dengan berhenti ngerengek ke orangtua lo tiap minta sesuatu, tau diri umur udah bukan anak kecil lagi. Bukan dengan kedewasaan 16 tahun yang sama pacar udah mikirin mau nikah, yakin masa depan lo segitu doang?
Atau ketika umur lo 21 tahun, mungkin dengan berhenti cemburu-cemburuan sama temen cuma karena perkara temen punya gadget lebih bagus terus kalian jadi musuhan. Masih pantes emang umur kepala dua masih begitu?
Bahkan ketika lo udah berumur 30 tahun dan berkeluarga, jangan masih suka naksir kiri kanan, inget sama cincin kawin lo... Layak ga tingkah masih sok playboy?

Bukan berarti gue menyamaratakan perkembangan jiwa semua orang, bukan... Tapi selalu ada patokan mana yang benar dan mana yang kurang benar.

Terus lo sendiri gimana? Jangan cuma bisa ngomentarin orang lain aja lo!
Gue? Gue juga pernah mengalami masa-masa sulit dalam hidup gue, bahkan lebih sulit dari beberapa orang lain, bahkan yang pernah gue hadapi adalah situasi yang semua orang selalu bilang "Amit-amit, amit-amit" sambil ketok-ketok kayu.

Seperti yang Helen Keller bilang, ga bakal terbentuk kedewasaan kalau di hidup lo cuma ada tenang dan lurus. Cuma dengan melalui berbagai cobaan dan rasa sakit, rasa kecewa, rasa malu, rasa tertekan maka diri lo bisa jadi lebih kuat, lebih semangat mencapai masa depan yang lebih baik, dan pada akhirnya bisa berhasil.
Jadi jangan malu kalau hidup lo ga semulus orang lain, jangan risau kalau lo merasa kurang dibanding orang lain, jangan takut kalau seolah-olah hidup lo isinya cuma masalah ke masalah lain aja. Inilah hidup lo, jalani aja sebaik yang lo bisa. Buang jauh-jauh pikiran kalau diri lo ga worth it, kalau orang lain akan selalu memandang lo sebelah mata, dan kalau hidup lo bakal begini-begini aja. Dunia itu berputar, begitu juga dengan hidup lo.

Just in case you're wondering what I do with own life so far; All I do is live my best, working on my passion, finish what I need to do, set my eyes on the future, and keep close to my closest people.

So...
How old is my soul? My soul is as old as my age. Ya, I do survive from the ups and downs of my life. Butuh waktu yang ga singkat memang buat bisa ikhlas, menerima semuanya, lalu move on dan berusaha hidup lebih baik dari sebelumnya. Bekasnya masih ada, traumanya belum hilang, tapi bukan alasan untuk gue menolak tumbuh atau malah memaksakan untuk tumbuh lebih cepat.
Just simply... live it.

...Dan ini bukan tulisan yang nulis aja gampang, jalaninnya kan susah! No, I write this based on my own experience and this is what I become today. If I can do it, why can't you?

Sunday, September 15, 2013

To blogspot I finally returned

Hello again!
So I'm finally back here, and it's quite nice seeing a few of my follower friends still sticking around here even tough I've been like almost a year not posting anything here.

The reason I'm not blogging here for a very long time it's because I've been active on my other blog, but what can I do if in the end that other blog decide to broke and I can't access it all. The only thing I can do is of course back here, to my old lovely blog.
But no worry, this is practically same with my old blog since I obviously copy every posts I had there to here.

Actually one of my friend had offered me a help to fix my old blog, but I said no because it's just simply feel so right to be able to blog here again. Maybe I'm changing my blog channel a lot but this far I hardly only have two account, the other one I don't have any idea what the hell the password is anymore and another one is this account, the account I've been using since 2010 if I'm not mistaken.
Well... so I'm officially will back blogging here, feel so great and excited. Also I love love love my new blog look, I've been worked very hard to arranged it so I can't feel more happy about the result which is so me and I absolutely looooove it!

So I guess see you again on my coming post, I need to sleep now BTW, it's already 2o'clock in the morning here. Really need to fix my sleeping pattern, God.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

#IdeaSwap: Photo Album

"Home is where the heart is and I can’t even express how far away from home I feel now…"
 

No matter how cliché it may sound, I’m that kind of girl who always clinging to my past whatsoever. Doesn’t literally mean that I’m hard to move on sort of person, no. Unable to move on and cherish your past are a very two different things.

The easiest way to go back to the past is through a photo album. The old photo album is always consist of many stories in it. Sometimes few of them are a forgotten memories, the story that you already forgot until you open and see that photos again, and just like an old camera film, all the stories and the feeling are back to you.
The photo in the beginning of this post, those are an old pictures of me and my family… and yes, I do feel so far away from home now. Since now I live separately from my family while finishing my study.
The people in that photo are my little self, my Mom, my Dad, my baby brother, my cousins, my Grandpa, and my Grandma. Let me retrace what I remember after see that pictures…
I have a great and happy childhood, I don’t remember I ever felt very sad when I was a little girl. I was loved by many… I’m the first child and also the first grand child in my Mother’s family. My Mom said, the day I was born felt like a festival, the hospital’s corridor where my Mom given birth to me was fully loaded by my family, everyone came to see me! She said it was one of the happiest day of her life.
As I’m growing up, compared with me and Mother, I’m a little bit more close to my Dad. He is the one I always look up to even until today.
A little me was very shy, I dislike being with a new people so much, that’s way when I was a kid I got really close with my cousins since I didn’t really have a social life outside my family.
The beautiful woman in veil is my Grandma. She’s not with me again now, she passed away when I was 16 years old because of a sudden heart attack. I miss her so much, my Grandma is my everything. Yes, after my Dad, the second person I’m most close with was my Grandma.
One thing I remember the most about Grandma is the romantic story about her and my Grandpa that she once told me. My Grandma was a beautiful girl from a rich family who fell in love with a handsome air force troops. My Grandma said her family hated my Grandpa very much at first. Why a high class girl like her want to marry a lowly troops? But their love finally won over everything. I even found a box full of old love letters that my Grandpa sent to her like, I don’t know, over 40 years ago? I read few of it, written in a stack of paper that getting yellowish with a classic hand-writing. God, that romantic thing is really exist.

…See? How many forgotten stuff you can remember just through a piece of old photo, the stories are irreplaceable. Not only for the sake of good memories, by seeing back to your past once in a while you can watch yourself growing up and realizing that the place where you stand now really is your place after all.