Sunday, October 27, 2013


"…the thing about literature and music. You use it as a way of defining yourself. You use it as an extension of your character. Somebody else’s words writing your thoughts. And I think everybody who relates to music is kind of isolated. It’s lonely. Everyone who uses the creative side of their brain is that much removed from reality. They are looking for answers wherever they can find them."
-- Laura Marling

Thursday, October 24, 2013

We all have chapters we would rather keep unpublished...

A 4o'clock in the Morning Post

Good morning-good morning-good morning!!
(...Or is it still too early to call this time a morning?) But whatever, I just woke up from a really short sleep. Gue mungkin baru tidur kira-kira dua setengah jam yang lalu, kemudian kebangun dengan uring-uringan karena ada nomer ga dikenal yang telepon... dan salah sambung. Pfffft.

Actually, as usual, I have no idea what to write... I just feel this urgent need to write something whatsoever. But I have one and two things to tell, a little update about my life maybe?

The first thing to report is: #IdeaSwap project is finally wrapped uuuuup!! Yeiiiy!!!! So it means, the new project will coming to this blog! Wait, I think I use too many exclamation mark in one sentence already. I'm excited, what can I do then?
Just as the previous project, the coming up project is also a collaboration with Miss janetsaid.wordpress.com -- hit the link and follow her blog too! The tag of next project will be #MyFave5, the rules are clear enough... Me and Janet already swapped the topics, all we have to do next is choose our five favorite stuff based on the topic and write it. Easy but challenging enough for me, because choosing five from many are difficult, no? Buuut... before we start the tag, we also have some sort of warming up post to do, we have to post a 50 facts about me first before start doing a real tag.
The aim of this project are not so different from the previous project, to free us from writing block and to stay productive of course, but I think especially for this project, not only it will give us so much fun when we write but also we really hope our choice can give you a good information too.
The second thing to report, hmm, I don't really have anything important too share actually... But hey, I'm changing my blog look again, how you like it or hate it? It is little bit flowery this time, I just feel in the mood for flower lately... don't ask me what another kind of syndrome is this, after brown madness now I suddenly got attacked by an obsession against anything vintage with some floral in it.
The third thing to report? Nothing... Recently my life are just going so-so. Oh, but I remember one thing I want to tell here in blog. This few days back I've been active again on Tumblr, so don't forget to check my tumblr too here, I do online a lot there... every day if not every hour. :p

So, that's all I can tell you right now. I have to hurry up and do my subuh prayer before I running out of time then go back to sleep.
Again -- its 5o'clock now -- good morning! 

Sunday, October 20, 2013

#IdeaSwap: For the Past and the Future

"The past has been there all along, reminding us: This time--maybe, hopefully, against all odds, we will get it right."
--Leslie T. Chang
Don't you think sometimes it scary how few things can change in a speed of light? I do. When I was a kid, a big bad world always overawe me. But as I'm getting older, the reality hurts, the world is indeed big and indeed bad.
I never know that my life will be like this, that I will write something about past and future in the middle of night whilst listening to Five For Fighting and brood over myself, what I have became and what I will become. I change a lot, even in this past three months, I've already transformed into a different person from what I used to be. If in a three months someone can change that much, what will happen in three years then?

All I know about past and future is that you can't live in it at the same time, for the time will shut one of them for you. You have to choose... being steady about your perfect past and live your present in a comfort zone or brave your present self to welcome an unknown future.

My past is a combination of a really beautiful memories and an inclement nightmare that I always thankful for, because it is what makes me Me today.
My present is currently... in a mess. As cliché as it may sound, for me everyday supposed to be a new day. Yet my recent situation is somehow messy, I practically fail to follow my own routine -- something like I have to go to sleep at this hour, I have to wake up at this hour, I have to take a bath at this hour -- and just do whatever I want. For some people maybe it sounds pretty fun, to be able to do whatever you want. But not for me, I might be a little indifferent but I hate being in the midst of chaos. At least I like living uprightly... with an exact schedule everyday, that I failed to do. Sigh.
My future is not yet known, so do your future. But I intend to make it as great as I can, for now all I can do is dreaming and working for it.

For the past and the future, the best choice is to live your present to the fullest that it means you embracing your past as a part of yourself and hailing to the future as it is also will become a part of yourself. Live it people, live it...

Saturday, October 19, 2013

#IdeaSwap: Autumn

From all the idea swap topic, this probably one of the most hard title to write. I really wish I can just simply post a few photos as fall season is coming up, but no... the country where I live only have two seasons: First, the season when the sun is feels crazily hot. Second, the season when the sun is feels crazily hot too but thank God there will be rain for about two or three days once.
So let's just forget about the beautiful autumn pictures where many people probably busy taking photos when they go pumpkin picking or apple picking, it's literally summer for every each day in a year here... I'm sooo jealous of everyone live in four seasons country. Sob.

Well, autumn...
I am not really an autumn person. If I have to choose what's my favorite season is, it will be summer... and spring. But there's one thing that I love about autumn, the color.
Most people I know will pick autumn as their favorite season. Even so I'm not a big autumn fan, I think I know and understand the reasons. Autumn is when the temperature is going chill after a hot summer but not as freezing as winter, and also autumn is super prettieeeeeee, it seems like the earth is creating the most beautiful scenery as a grand finale before winter and since the season will start over again when spring is coming, a big-epic-beautiful-grand finale autumn is.

I love how the seasons can be compared with the circle of life, how each season picturing a different part of life itself.
As for me, I like to analyze the connection of some people's favorite picks with their personality or their philosophy of life. I tell you my secret, that's how I judge you. You like autumn? Then I will say that you're some sort of romantic person. You like winter? Probably you're the melancholic one.
But it's just me, it can be right or wrong...

Whatever the season is, autumn in half part of the world and soon it's going to rain a lot in my part of the world. I really wish all of us will have a new and exciting life to tell and to be thankful for.
Enjoy autumn! And don't forget your umbrella too!! 

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Brown Madness


I just waken up by a very weird dream. A dream about me and unknown garden full of flowers, but the colors of my dream are all black, white... and brown. I mean, a black and white dream maybe not that strange but a dream in brown, like, really? Is it some kind of sign that I'm craving for chocolate? No?
But inspired by that dream, and also because I can't go back to sleep so I make a few change for this blog. As you can see, my blog now look all brown. I do realize that it is not as fancy as my previous theme, but I love this one more.
I'm a vintage girl at heart. But not that kind of classic-vintage type. How to put it in an easy term to understand, hmm... I love the color of instagram's filter! You know, the black and the white and the brown but with a touch of shocking pink or super bright red in it.

Oh, and whilst I'm writing this post... I realize another thing, it is not only my blog that now all brown. A few weeks ago I also change my path, twitter, and tumblr theme into brown, also all my social media photos are slightly have a brownie in it. What the... What's with me and my sudden addiction of brown lately? Weird that I just realized it now.

And talking about favorite color, just a random though that popped in my head; is there any research that state about favorite color and its connection with human psychologist condition?

Tuesday, October 15, 2013



When something bothered me, I didn't talk to anyone about it. I thought it all over by myself, come to a conclusion, and took action alone. Not that I really felt lonely. I thought that's just the way things are. Human beings, in the final analysis, have to survive on their own.
--Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart



Sunday, October 13, 2013

#IdeaSwap: Once Upon A Dream

Dari banyak sekali cerita romantis yang pernah gue tau, gue selalu suka ketika muncul kalimat "I feel like I already know you...", satu pertanyaan yang belum sempat gue tanyakan ke siapapun sampai sekarang, memang iya perasaan I feel like I already know you itu ada?
Every girl have her own prince charming... A perfect guy for her, the one that someday will be a father for her child.
For once and twice, I almost felt that I already met that person. Mungkin gue yang terlalu tinggi berandai-andai, mungkin juga gue cuma sekedar mencari pembenaran dari teori gue sendiri... but in that once and twice time there were nothing that felt like I feel like I already know you. Yang ada cuma, I know you well enough already and that what makes me sure about us. Keyakinan yang ternyata salah.

But I do have a dream about him... When we're sitting under the milkyway and talking about secret just between us two.

So when one day, I finally met him...

...Can I say to people about, I feel like I already know him?
...And tell him that, I love you once upon a dream?

I know you
I walked with you once upon a dream
I know you
The gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam
Yes, I know it's true that vision are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I know what you'll do
You'll love me at once
The way you did once upon a dream...
--Princess Aurora, Sleeping Beauty

Monday, October 7, 2013

Music Blurb: Miley Cyrus, Panic! At The Disco, Block B, Glee Cast, All Time Low, Busker Busker, Coldplay, Lorde

As I ever promised, I will try to make time for doing a review in my blog... and here it is!
A few days ago I already reviewed the latest K-Drama that I have watched. Now I'm going to review some freshly downloaded albums. Like I said before, compare with watching movie and reading a book, I'm listening to music a lot more... So you can expect this kind of music blurb post will pop here more often too.

The musics that I download are not always the new release album or song, sometimes I download an old records too... since I basically love to hear to everything, from any era.
Let's start, shall we?

Miley Cyrus, Bangerz
Tracklist: Adore You | We Can't Stop | SMS (Bangerz) | 4x4 | My Darlin' | Wrecking Ball | Love Money Party | #getitright | Drive | Fu | Do My Thang | Maybe You're Right | Someone Else | Rooting For My Baby | On My Own | Hands In The Air

This girl is definitely phenomenal... and I love her music as much as I hate her scandals. Been listen to her since Hannah Montana era until now, and never dislike her songs. This album feel a lot like her official announcement about her metamorphosis. People, don't you think Miley Cyrus will be going to be as controversial as Spears and Gaga?

My fave: Wrecking Ball, #getitright, Do My Thang, Someone Else, Rooting For My Baby --- ☆ 4/5


Panic! At The Disco, Too Weird To Live, Too Rare To Die!
Tracklist: This Is Gospel | Miss Jackson (Feat. Lolo) | Vegas Light | Girl That You Love | Nicotine | Girls/Girls/Boys | Casual Affair | Far Too Young To Die | Collar Full | The End of All Things

Well, Panic! At The Disco ladies and gentleman... as brilliant as always. Although I find this album is a little bit boring for me, but they still fulfill my expectation. I also always fascinated by how they always have a perfect title for their albums, they indeed are too weird to live but too rare to die.

My fave: This Is Gospel, Girls/Girls/Boys, Far Too Young To Die, Collar Full --- ☆ 3,5/5


Block B, Very Good
Tracklist: Very Good | 빛이 되어줘 | 언제 어디서 무엇을 어떻게 (Park Kyung solo Feat. Urban Zakapa's Jo Hyunah) | Nice Day | Very Good (Inst.)

It's a decent album. I can't really judge because this is a mini album and I'm not exactly a big fan of Block B. But I do able to enjoy their songs in this album, especially Park Kyung's solo... he sounds amazing.

My fave: 언제 어디서 무엇을 어떻게 --- ☆ 1,5/5


Glee Cast, Glee Sings The Beatles
Tracklist: Imagine | Yesterday | Help | Blackbird | Something | A Hard Day's Night | Hello, Goodbye | Get Back | Here Comes the Sun | Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club | All You Need Is Love | Silly Love Song | Hey Jude | Let It Be | You've Got To Hide Your Love Away | In My Life | I Saw Her Standing There | I Want To Hold Your Hand | Got To Get You Into My Life | Drive My Car

This album is too great to missed. I never can't get enough The Beatles, and a little dose of Glee everyday will never hurt. My favorite Glee's album so far!

My fave: Yesterday, Blackbird, All You Need Is Love, Silly Love Song, Hey Jude, In My Life, I Want To Hold Your Hand --- ☆ 5/5


All Time Low, Dirty Work
Tracklist: Do You Want Me (Dead?) | I Feel Like Dancin' | Forget About It | Guts | Time-bomb | Just the Way I'm Not | Under a Paper Moon | Return the Favor | No Idea | A Daydream Away | That Girl | Heroes | Get Down On Your Knees and Tell Me You Love Me | My Only One | Merry Christmas, Kiss My Ass | Bad Enough For You

Released in 2011 and I just re-downloaded it because I was accidentally deleted mine a few weeks ago. Even this is a second time for me to sorting which songs are my favorite of all... It is still hard to choose. A really must-listened-to!

My fave: Guts, Time-bomb, Just the Way I'm Not, No Idea, A Daydream Away, That Girl --- ☆ 5/5


Busker Busker, 버스커 버스커 2집
Tracklist: 가을밤 | 잘할 걸 | 사랑은 타이밍 | 처음엔 사랑이란게 | 시원한 여자 | 그대 입술이 (With Putput's Cha Jiyeon) | 줄리엣 |  아름다운 나이 | 밤

Compare with their first album, I personally like the second album more. The overall feel of vol. 2 is still very Busker Busker, the reason why I love them but also the reason why I think they're get little boring. But the fact that this album is great enough to even compete with so many Korean idol group's comeback title song and win is proving that they're really is something.

My fave: 사랑은 타이밍, 시원한 여자, 그대 입술이, 줄리엣 --- ☆ 2/5


Coldplay, Coldplay Live 2012
Tracklist: Mylo Xyloto | Hurts Like Heaven | In My Place | Major Minus | Yellow | God Put A Smile Upon Your Face | Princess Of China | Up In Flames | Viva La Vida | Charlie Brown | Paradise | Us Against The World | Clocks | Fix You | Every Teardrop Is A Waterfall

I downloaded this album for an obvious sad reason: I can't afford to go to their live concert so I listen to their live album. And this album is... ah-ma-zing! All the scream, all the fun, all the goosebumps are perfectly captured. For all the Coldplay fans out there, go buy this album now if you haven't!

My fave: Yellow, Up In Flames, Viva La Vida, Fix You, Every Teardrops Is A Waterfall --- ☆ 5/5


Lorde, Pure Heroine
Tracklist: Tennis Court | 400 Lux | Royals | Ribs | Buzzcut Season | Team | Glory and Gore | Still Sane | White Teeth Teens | A World Alone

Like, Adele who? Lorde is the next big thing. For me, it give the same taste as when I listening to Lana Del Rey, but Lorde sounds more fresh, most of the song have a slow to medium tempo but feels very energizing... I guess that's my best way to describe her music in word. Yet I really do expect something more great come up from her in the future.

My fave: Royals, Team, White Teeth Teens, A World Alone --- ☆ 1,5/5

Sunday, October 6, 2013


A well-composed book is a magic carpet on which we are wafted to a world that we cannot enter in any other way. --Caroline Gordon

Friday, October 4, 2013

#IdeaSwap: The Apple Of My Eyes

"Waktu kamu lahir, semua orang nungguin kamu... Tapi ga ada yang lebih deg-degan dari Papa..."
Aku menggeser-geser trackpad Blackberry ku, sepinya malam ini, sedang apa ya anak-anakku disana? Kembali rasa tidak enak yang berlebihan membuncah memenuhi dadaku, sakitnya sampai ke ulu hati. Untuk orang seumurku yang sudah menginjak kepala lima ini menggunakan kata galau sepertinya tidak lagi pantas. Tapi harus kusebut apa lagi rasa rindu dan sepi yang seperti ini, kecuali rasa itu sedikit tercemar oleh rasa kecewa, malu, dan bersalah yang terus-terusan menghantuiku.
Kembali aku memandang kosong ponselku, melihat foto-foto anak-anakku yang kuambil diam-diam dari facebook dan twitter mereka. 
Satu hal yang aku syukuri, walaupun jauh tapi mereka terlihat baik-baik saja dan juga bahagia.

Putri sulungku, masih menyelesaikan kuliahnya di Semarang. Aku jadi teringat percakapanku dengannya beberapa hari yang lalu,


"Skripsi kamu gimana Teh?"

"Lancar Pa, doain aja ya selesai secepatnya...,"

Percakapan kemudian berlanjut, putriku menjelaskan serentetan isi skripsinya yang sebenarnya sama sekali tidak kumengerti apa maksudnya.
Terimakasih Tuhan, Kau memberikan putriku kecerdasan yang berkali-kali lipat dibanding denganku, walaupun pada akhirnya hanya membuatku bingung karena tidak mengerti apa yang dia bicarakan.

Putra bungsuku, tinggal dengan mantan istriku di Jakarta, sekarang menginjak kelas sembilan. Sebentar lagi akan masuk SMA, padahal rasanya baru kemarin aku membelikan seragam putih-merah pertamanya.

"Pa, Adek mau beli game terbaru dong... Boleh?"

"Boleh, berapa harganya? Nanti Papa kirim uangnya ke Mama...,"

Kembali anakku membicarakan hal yang tidak kumengerti, kali ini putraku menjelaskan panjang lebar tentang game terbaru yang ingin dibelinya, lengkap dengan embel-embel janji kalau bermain game tidak akan menggangu jam belajarnya.

Terimakasih lagi Tuhan, Kau memberiku putra yang selalu berusaha memberiku ketenangan, walaupun nantinya pasti aku akan menerima laporan kalau dia lupa mengerjakan PR nya karena keasyikan bermain game.

Maafkan Papa ya Nak...
Cuma ini yang saat ini bisa Papa lakukan dan berikan untuk kalian. Papa tidak bisa memberikan waktu Papa untuk kalian, jadi kalau Papa mengirimkan sedikit uang berlebih pada kalian, jadikan itu hiburan untuk menggantikan kehadiran Papa yang tidak bisa menemani kalian. Papa disini baik-baik saja, doakan Papa selalu sehat ya... Doakan juga Papa selalu dipermudah rejekinya, jadi nanti kita bisa hidup dengan tenang walaupun Papa sudah pensiun bekerja.
Maafkan Papa ya Nak...
Papa ini mungkin adalah contoh bapak yang gagal. Yang bahkan tidak bisa mempertahankan rumah tangganya, yang menyebabkan kalian harus mengalami perceraian yang menyakitkan.

Tapi jangan benci Papa karena hal itu, kalian kan tahu kalau selain kalian, Papa tidak punya siapa-siapa lagi.

Karena buat Papa, hanya kalianlah satu-satunya semangat Papa... yang membuat Papa bersabar menghadapi cobaan bertubi-tubi yang datang silih berganti dalam hidup kita.

Semua yang Papa lakukan, untuk siapa lagi kalau bukan untuk Teteh dan Adek?

Tahu kan, Papa sayang sekali sama kalian...


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Yes, it was me talked about my dad's feelings. No, he never told me anything about that.
Because people, sometimes silent is the loudest thing if you want to try to hear a little bit deeper. Even so my dad never describe what's his feeling like, I know him so well that I don't even need him to tell me everything to know about it.

I'm a family girl at heart... I love my dad, I love my mom, I love my brother.
Family can annoy you, smother you, suffocate you until you feel like dying... but I'll take it anytime, death by love can't be that bad.

And the apple of my eyes? They are the apple of my eyes.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Another new month is finally here. I can't believe how fast is September actually over... I'm not even yet say wake me up when September ends, and it was already ended. Now that thinking about last month, I realize that I don't really do things at all, last month just skip a beat and nothings change.
I do hope I can finish something in this month and also in many next months coming up. Honestly it's getting tiresome to always starting something but in fact never able to finish it.

My October wish is just simply to bring this month to the fullest. So let's hope and work something for a better October!! ❤