Wednesday, December 31, 2014

New Year's Eve, Me-time, and the List

Lama sekali rasanya sejak terakhir kali punya waktu dan punya niat untuk duduk anteng di depan komputer dan berbagi sedikit curhat di blog yang lama terabaikan ini.
And then again, alasan gue klasik banget… ini tanggal 31 Desember, beberapa jam menuju tahun baru. Rasanya ada yang kurang kalau nggak pakai acara basa-basi di dunia maya tentang si tahun baru ini, yang dimulai dengan berita duka soal kecelakaan pesawat QZ8501—may they souls rest in peace—yang telak-telak mengingatkan kita, dibalik hingar-bingar tahun baru yang biasanya identik dengan pesta dan perayaan, bahwa ujung dari takdir manusia itu nggak bakal kemana-mana selain kembali pada penciptaNya.
Jadi mungkin akhir dan awal tahun ini akan sedikit lebih memberi kita bahan untuk direnungi, dan tentu saja untuk disyukuri.

Lalu, sedikit off topic, how’s your new year’s eve?
Mine is alone, yet not lonely though. Harusnya gue sekarang ada di Puncak, di villa keluarga. Cuma dengan berat hati gue memilih untuk stay di rumah karena bokap gue nggak bisa ikut, beliau ada tanggung jawab yang harus diselesaikan di kantor dan mungkin baru bisa pulang lewat tengah malam. Dan gue nggak tega ninggalin dia sendirian, sementara gue senang-senang di Puncak gitu kan…
So yeah, tahun ini gue menghabiskan tahun baru di rumah dan sendirian. But it’s not even a problem, I love being alone like this once in a while. Dan buat kalian yang belum pernah menghabiskan malam tahun baru sendirian, try it, at least once in your lifetime… either you go travelling alone atau duduk diam di rumah, beri ruang buat diri kita banyak berpikir dan banyak berencana.
Make a resolution list, or a to-do list, or even bucket list. Let your imagination lead you towards things you want to do. No it’s not lame, it’s a form of personal vision. Dan itu sangat, sangat membantu lo ke depannya, karena percayalah, for a 20-something people like us… akan ada kalanya kita bingung di persimpangan jalan, nggak tau baiknya belok kiri atau kanan karena kurang paham kemana tujuan kita sebenarnya, especially those who still single—like me (by single means not married yet, kalau janur kuning belum melengkung then I assume you’re still alone in living and controlling your life).
And do I myself make a list for 2015 too? Yes, I am.
Walaupun list kali ini sedikit berbeda, karena tahun-tahun sebelumnya gue terbiasa menuliskan big picture-nya saja; lulus kuliah, cari kerja, sukses. Things like that. But for this year, I write ‘em in more tiny details, macam; take more pictures, read at least five non-young adult novel, posting something on blog at least once a month, learn to bake a cake. Dimulai dari yang sederhana-sederhana aja sampai yang mungkin akan merubah pola, kebiasaan, dan berjalannya hidup gue sama sekali. Lalu gue mewajibkan di akhir tahun 2015 nanti, setidaknya setengah dari list itu sudah berhasil gue penuhi.
Won’t be easy, but this girl gotta try!

In the end, whatever you do in this new year’s eve… mengutip kata-kata Oprah Winfrey, “Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right!
Aaaaaand… happy new year, loves!

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

2014 is near the end now. And what my biggest lesson learned? It's that there are two kind of people we'll meet in life. Those who bring out the best of us, and those who bring out the worst of us. Cherish both of them, since they're your ticket to grow as a bigger person at heart. A better one.

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Thursday, December 4, 2014

Just a random motivational poster I found on pinterest today. And how relatable it is for me... this is exactly my way on how to build my personal mental image.
Be strong and make a difference, because you're the only one who have the ability to make your life better.

Xo, U

Monday, December 1, 2014

Décembre

Today almost everybody I know channeling their Efek Rumah Kaca’s Desember, or Taylor Swift’s Back To December.
Because, weeeeee love December!

Desember artinya adalah natal dan tahun baru. Walaupun gue nggak merayakan natal, but the spirit is contagious. Jalan-jalan ke mall di musim natal adalah salah satu aktifitas favorit gue di bulan Desember seperti ini, just because the decoration!
Belum lagi detik-detik menuju pergantian tahun yang dibenci tapi dinanti semua orang. All the all-nighter, the fireworks, the midnight kiss, and the resolutions.
Buat gue pribadi, hal favorit gue tentang Desember adalah bagaimana bulan ini menandakan akhir dan awal dari perjalanan setahun gue. And I also get unusually melancholy on December. The reflection and the realization are no joke. Everything about the sudden wakeup call of how far this year made a difference to myself, and—at the same time, how I actually going nowhere while there are so much other things I supposedly able to achieve this past year will always put me on the edge of happy and sad at the same time.
But let’s save our new year thingy until the last week and day of this month. Here in Indonesia, today is December 1st and a Monday! What a perfect state to start over, huh?
And also, I already list some new exciting things to blog in the future. Finger crossed that I manage to write it in time.

So, December… let’s start!

Monday, October 27, 2014

Today Is a National Blogger Day!

I feel like today is my birthday, only instead I celebrate it together with thousands of my fellow bloggers out there.
SELAMAT HARI BLOGGER NASIONAL, Y'ALL! ♡

But first thing first—wow, it feels like forever since the last time I blog something chitty-chatty like this. I don't know, maybe because lately I feel so content and rather occupied with my life that I don't really feel like sharing anything in the blogland.
Now that I'm writing this, I realize how I miss doing this on the blog... you know, a post with no theme, just me blabbering around about myself & my life.
Oh, and I'm writing this post via the blogger app on my phone too... which also I've been not doing since a long, long time ago. Maybe almost a year or so.
Not to mention how me rereading all ten The Princess Diaries series makes me kind of miss writing a journal. I remember how I used to diligently wrote a diary when I were 8 to 19 years old... I have no idea why that habit just stop when I hit my 20s. Maybe because I suddenly feel too old for any dear diary moment. Or maybe I'm just lazy.
But yeah, I think it's not a bad idea to doing this kind of post again in near future... talking to the internet is hella fun! Not that I feel like my life is THAT interesting to share to the whole internet population, it's just me wanna talk about stuff. Because I'm weird like that.
Nice, no? Having this kind of sentient in a good day like today. October 27th is one of my all time favorite day since I decided to join in this blogger la-la-land. So once again, happy blogger day to all Indonesian bloggers out there—feature blogger, fashion blogger, movie blogger, food blogger, beauty blogger, fanfiction blogger, any blogger! Today is our day, let's keep blogging the good stuff and keep this little part of world call internet awesome.

Xo, U

Monday, October 13, 2014

"Revenge Wears Prada: The Devil Returns" : The devil in high heels is back, still as evil as she's always been


(This post contain spoiler)
“First loves were powerful and private, and they stayed with you for a very long time. A lifetime. There would always be a small, intimate piece of your heart tucked away for the person you loved first.”
When I bought this book... I bought it right after my eyes caught the first glance of the cover at the bookstore. Without further thinking and even without reading the synopsis first. I just grabbed it and went straight to the cashier. Because the thing is; the former series of this book, Devil Wears Prada, is so goooood I read it more than four times cover to cover.
So with that high expectation, I started read the book as soon as I'm home. Here comes the bad news, I'm halfway through chapter one when I realized, man... why is this didn't excite me as much as the first book?

Before I make a further (personal) judgement, let me review and spoil the story a little bit...
The story take time ten years after Andrea Sachs resigned from Runway. And it's kind of perplex me when a character name Emily Charlton appear as Andy's best friend. I tried to recall the story and as long as I remember, the only Emily in the novel is the Emily whom once was Andy's colleague in the Miranda Priestly--the devil--secretarial office. It took long enough until I reached almost the middle of the book when the story finally explained how Andy and Emily suddenly turn out to be a BFF when we all agree that they supposed to be an old nemesis instead of good friend.
Andy and Emily reunited in one session of cooking class which gone all wrong and learn the fact that not long after Andy resigned from the magazine, Emily was being sacked by Miranda. Practically since that moment Andy and Emily bonded by their hatred over Miranda.
Now Andy and Emily are two hell of successful career women, they have their grown magazine too now, The Plunge, a high-end bridal magazine own by them. While Emily is married to Miler Everett, who is also a best friend of Andy soon-to-be husband, Max Harisson. Max is a typical New York tycoon with a "royal" family background, a big company which he inherited from his late father, and a great apartment on the Upper East Side.
In their first meeting, Andy and Max both have no romantic intention towards each other at all. Because basically they're start of as a business partner where Andy successfully convince Max to invest some money in The Plunge.
About Andy's personal life, after she resigned from Runway, she also broke up with her longtime boyfriend, Alex, who move to Mississippi for a teaching job and lost in touch after that. Andy become more all over the place with the fact that her parents got divorce, and her old best friend, Lily, also move to Colorado where she later have three kids with her live-in boyfriend. But Andy, as such a strong woman we all adore, manage to survive. Her life starting to back on the track after she befriend Emily, and having Max in her life.
But Andy and Max marriage is already shaky from the day of the wedding when Andy finds a letter from Max's mother, Barbara, who against their marriage and telling Max to not marry Andy. Also open the fact that Max met his ex-girlfriend--who apparently her mother one hundred percent approve to be Max's wife--and Max sort of forget to mention his accidental meeting with Katherine to Andy that make Andy questions the future of their marriage. And Andy, being such a drama queen, keep having an anxiety about it until Max confront her and later assure her that it's all nothing.
Not long after marrying Max, Andy learn that she's pregnant. Nine months later she gives birth to a baby girl name Clementine Rose.
While everything finally seems run smoothly in Andy personal life, her job life is another different story. Apparently the big news is that Miranda Priestly, who's not only still sit as an editor-in-chief at Runway but she also now become the editorial director at Elias-Clark, its publisher, contacts Andy and Emily with a mission to acquire The Plunge. This matter end up in Andy versus Emily, Miles, and Max different decisions. Where Andy is so sure that once The Plunge fall into Miranda's hand, she will take over the control of the magazine and leaving Andy and Emily, once again, under her tyranny and put them in a misery like she used to do in the past. But the other three have a whole opposite thinking that in contrary, The Plunge will be getting bigger and better under a big publisher company like Elias-Clark. In the end Max, Miles, and Emily sell The Plunge to Miranda even without Andy's approval. This is makes everything falling apart; Andy resign, divorce Max, and ends her friendship with Emily.
Andy later gets a job as a contributing editor for New York magazine while working in her first novel. Also Andy finds out that Alex has moved back to New York and after some love-drama with Alex girlfriend who turns out having an affair behind Alex's back. In the end, Andy and Alex back together.

So that's that...
Due to all my respects to Ms. Weisberger, who tell the story in the most enchanting way possible, but why is it have to end that way?
The twist is just insane. I really don't see it coming. Even thought the end of the story is still consider as a happy ending. But it just not happy ending enough. Oh, and I almost forget to tell; Andy's bad omen about Miranda Priestly's motive to buy The Plunge is true. Emily is fired ten weeks after La Priestly acquires The Plunge and take over the whole editorial staff. Emily then moves to L.A. with Miles where she later become a celebrity stylist.

I don't say that the story is all bad, it's great... but the ending is kinda "Eh, wow, okaaaay...". Yet then again, who am I to judge. Me myself won't even able to think that kind of twist if I were the one who write it. Maybe it's all will end up as happy and as cliche as it could be.
Still I encourage you to read the story yourself too, see if we have a same feeling about the ending or not! ;)

Over all, I give it 3/5 stars. This novel still live up its strong female characters and mesmerizing us with love-hate impressions about them like always.

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Detox Yourself with the Infuse Water


The thing about living in a big city, pollution, is aaall around us. Many modern big city inhabitants searching for a way to keep healthy in the middle of their tight daily schedule.
Now, how to get your healthy-polluted-free body in the easiest way possible? Infuse water! What a simple yet brilliant idea... while we know that this infuse/detox/sassy water thingy isn't really new, but still it's worth a try.
Infuse water, rumored to help you flush a nasty toxins in your body, not to mention also good to maintain a flat belly. It's really a shortcut to a super hydrated and fresh body.
There are many variations of ingredients you can try when you make your infuse water. Mostly it consists of water, mint leave, lemon or lime, cucumber or watermelon, and/or any kind of berries. Some of the infuse also consist a pinch of fresh ginger too. But then again, you free to being creative... you can browse the internet for more variation of infuse water.

What you need to prepare:
- 2 Lemons
- 10-12 Strawberries
- A handful of Mint Leaves
- 1-2 liters Water

What you need to do next:
- Slice the lemons and Strawberries (or any other kind of fruit you choose)
- Place those into the bottom of jar/pitcher
- Toss in mint leaves
- Add water
- Let it sit for at least 8 hours. It can be either room or fridge temperature, anything you prefer more

That's it! That's all the steps you need to make an infuse water. While this water isn't exactly the delicious flavor kind of drink, so if you can't stand the sour taste, adding honey isn't a bad idea at all. It's make your infuse water not only full of efficacy of health to your body but also taste amazing, such a joy for your taste bud.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

A Guide for 20-something Women: Things All 20-something women are tired of hearing

It's another Sunday and I feel as happy as a clam!
Memenuhi janji bulan lalu, here I am ready to kick off on my first ever theme post for this month. Nggak jauh-jauh, the theme I choose is girls. Lebih tepatnya a twentysomething girls. Yours truly here kebetulan bulan lalu baru saja melewati ulang tahunnya yang ke-24. Yours truly here juga kebetulan sedang dalam posisi dimana kebanyakan kita menyebutnya sebagai under pressure yang tentu saja nggak ada enak-enaknya.
Gue masih dalam proses mencari pekerjaan impian, gue juga baru saja menghadiri nikahan sepupu yang umurnya pas diatas gue nggak lama ini. Yang artinya adalah pertanyaan semua orang ke gue nggak pernah jauh-jauh dari "Kerja dimana sekarang?" dan "Kapan nyusul nikah?"
You feel me, sister?

So people, here's the deal... why don't you just leave us alone?
Hidup, seperti yang kita semua tahu adalah serentetan proses pencarian yang tanpa henti. Mulai dari cari jati diri, cari tujuan hidup, cari uang buat makan dan beli sepatu, sampai cari pahala. Manusiawinya adalah kita semua pasti melalui semua proses itu... Gue sejujurnya termasuk golongan orang yang senang-senang saja diberondong dengan pertanyaan-pertanyaan itu karena gue selalu mikir, at least those people made an effort, antara berusaha basa-basi buat nyapa dan membuka pembicaraan atau memang mereka peduli sama kita. Positive thinking sangat diperlukan disini, so let's be positive.
Tapi manusiawi juga kalau lama-lama akan ada kalanya kita lelah dan muak menghadapi semua pertanyaan itu. With that in mind I make a list about things we 20s women tired of hearing, just for the sake us can share a laugh together. Because girls... if life gets hard, laughing out loud is probably the most mature way to let it all through and keep us sane facing this crazy, crazy world.

1. "Where's your boyfriend?"
2. "I can't believe you're still single!"
3. "Honey, why are you so picky?"
4. "How if you'll never get married?"
Oh here we comes, rasanya pengen balik badan dan kabur saat itu juga kalau pertanyaan-pertanyaan super awkward kaya gini muncul. Pertama, orang-orang harus sadar kalau nggak semua yang nggak berpacar itu sedih or currently in miserable place. Sometimes we single by choice... karena di umur 20an, pacaran bukan lagi sekedar sayang-sayangan. We're talking about serious relationship and commitment here, something that will take a lot from us. I'm also now in place where I choose to stay single, karena merasa hidup gue sendiri saja masih menuntut untuk banyak diurus dan ditata... how do you expect me to be in relationship dan ngurusin orang lain, no, I will go back on market if I think I'm ready. Gimana kalau ternyata ujung-ujungnya nggak dapat-dapat? Jodoh, adanya di tangan Tuhan... that's it.
5. "When are you going to get married?"
6. "Are you planning to give your mom and dad a grandchild soon?"
7. "You do want kids, don't you?"
8. "The clock is ticking, you won't get any younger..."
Gue pribadi belum mencapai tahap ini, but yeah some of my friends are... dan ceritanya nggak pernah jauh-jauh dari sebelumnya. Setelah akhirnya berpacar, semua orang akan grasak-grusuk bertanya kapan mau melangkah ke tahap selanjutnya, which is somehow such a very nice of them for hoping the best for us. Lalu setelah akhirnya kita menikah, pertanyaan lain pun mulai bermunculan. The situation won't be any better. Selanjutnya banyak orang akan bertanya-tanya--bahkan beberapa hampir seperti memaksa--untuk kita segera hamil dan punya anak, dilihat dari sisi baik tentulah karena mereka nggak sabar lagi buat melihat kita dan suami benar-benar menjadi sebuah keluarga. Keluarga kecil yang bahagia. Hanya saja kenyataannya, this is now about us and our husband. Pasti akan risih rasanya melihat orang-orang terkesan mencampuri urusan dalam rumah kita... jadi daripada berujung pembunuhan, the best thing woman can do in such situation; smile, like you don't care.
9. "How old are you now? 24, 26? You'll soon gonna be 30 you realize that?"
10. "You should take care of yourself from now, before you'll get older and it'll be too late."
11. "You'll feel different about yourself when you're older..."
12. "...And you just can't have it all, life doesn't work that easy way, darling."
Don't you even dare to darling me! Mungkin akan kedengaran seperti remaja labil, but the truth is we're really trying to get things figure out too... and their constant pressure don't give any help other than making us weeping in the corner even more. Perhatian orang lain kadang memang datang di saat dan dalam bentuk yang paling tidak terduga. Contohnya adalah how concern they are upon our look... so what if we're a little chubby or so what if we always on diet? Funny how some people selalu berusaha memberi nasihat tentang bagaimana kita harus menghargai diri sendiri tapi di waktu yang sama juga memberi dorongan ke arah yang sama sekali berlawanan. This is our life, none of your business.
13. "How much money do you make?"
14. "Don't you do too much shopping?"
First, shopping is fun. Second, why don't you trust me with my own money. Dari kecil kita sudah diajarkan menabung oleh orangtua dan guru-guru tercinta. And I think we get it already. Investasi masa depan adalah nomor satu dan yang terpenting. But a new pair of shoes or a pretty new bag once in a while won't hurt, right? Jealous much?
 15. "It's about time you settled down and be a full-time grown up. Soon thirty, remember?"
Yes, I remember, thank you. Now why don't start minding your own business and to not have a finger in the pie. Good bye.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

A-set-of-series-to-be

Hola!!
As beginning, let me happily announce that this post is sort of an announcement to my incoming post series in this very own blog. Those posts soon to be are gonna talk a lot about my many favorite topics in life.
I've been doing a lot of research lately, I visited so many blogs to look for some idea and to observe what most people talking about in their blog. The relationship and self-help stuff, besides those fashion and beauty related posts, are still the best thing to discuss in almost all my daily read.
I don’t have the ability to write a poetic writing or a beautiful evocative article, and as you probably already realize that all my writing will end up not far from my own experiences and what I feel—yeah, it’s all about me. Not that I’m include into that narcissistic kind of person, not really, but those kind of writing are the field where I feel most comfortable with.
It’s what finally bring me to the decision to make a set of series with one big theme, and the theme will be change at a certain time. I recall how the teenager me enjoy read a self-help book so much, I was obsessed to live an upright life. Still do until today. My most favorite is Richard Carlson’s Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff, which I read over and over and over again back then. Since then I have this tremendous interest towards human feeling and how they act based on it, other people struggle and survive story is mesmerizing me in the most intellectual way possible. I also always enjoy—a little too much—and happy to share my experiences with other people, and I've been told that I’m a good listener and adviser too.
My life isn't exactly an open book, but I still love to share some inside stories of that book anyway. With that in mind, starting next month I’ll see you in my theme post… how excited!!

Love, U.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

24 Is a Charm

What do you think about birthday?
Pernah ada masa dimana gue merasa ulang tahun itu nggak lagi penting. Kenapa? Alasan yang sederhana, karena merasa bukan anak kecil lagi dan karena bertambah tua itu ternyata bukanlah sesuatu yang menyenangkan untuk dirayakan. Tapi ternyata gue salah, momen ulang tahun tetaplah selalu spesial… hanya saja dengan cara yang berbeda. Bukan lagi perayaan yang meriah yang diharapkan, bukan juga surprise party dari orang-orang terdekat, dan bukan tentang kado yang didapat.
Ulang tahun terasa penting karena setelah sibuk dengan hidup setahun penuh, di tanggal lahir inilah gue akan teringat akan banyak hal. Kilas balik, perenungan, koreksi diri, dan pencerahan adalah apa yang gue alami di empat ulang tahun kebelakang ini. Klise ya? But it’s true…

Menyenangkan rasanya menerima ucapan ulang tahun dari orang-orang tersayang. Nggak setiap hari kan lo bangun tidur dan menemukan ayah dan adik lo udah duduk manis di meja makan, hugging you and kissing your forehead. Nggak setiap hari juga sahabat-sahabat lo yang biasanya sibuk dengan rutinitas masing-masing, pagi-pagi udah pada ngehubungin lo lengkap dengan serentetan doa dan harapan mereka buat lo, all the best for you kata mereka. Nggak setiap hari juga setelah hari yang panjang lo menemukan sebuah kue ulang tahun dengan lilin 2 dan 4 diatasnya.
My wish ketika meniup lilin-lilin itu? Semoga semua doa dan harapan yang orang-orang kirimkan untuk gue seharian tadi terkabul… amen.

Yes, I am getting older. No, it doesn’t mean I’ll instantly getting wiser.
Tapi manusia tentulah bisa berusaha, and that is exactly what I’m doing… trying to be a better person.


“Happy birthday to you, you're still young.
Age is just a number, don't you stop having fun.
This is your day, your day, happy birthday to you.
This day only comes once every year,
because you're so wonderful with each and everything you do, hey!”
-- NKOTB, Happy Birthday

Monday, August 4, 2014

A Pity Party

Helloooooo!
So, how’s your holiday? Mine is so-so because, you know, I’m currently in heaven where every day is a holiday—yeah, who the hell am I lying to? No heaven, not at all—but anyway, hoping you all have a better holiday than I am!

Next is… how it feels to get back on your daily schedule after this looong holiday? Is Monday still sucks as always?
I spend my Monday morning peacefully in front of my TV, watching E! and The Style Network since 7am until now… Okay, please don’t judge me, but I really am have this worrying addiction towards these channels. Also don’t get it wrong, you actually can learn A LOT from the programs. Like, what is the best way to braid your hair or how you can wear a pair of white dress in four different styles… not to mention those reality shows—which we all know is nothing reality, since everything are basically scripted—teach us a lot too.
Now, if you are an E! junkie like me, a name Giuliana Rancic must be familiar for you. No, I won’t give a long gossip essay about some Hollywood reporter in this post… this is Retenoire, baby not a Perez Hilton. But yeah… to be honest, I used to dislike this woman. When I said ‘used to dislike’ it is like last night I was still hated on her. Until this morning I watch a rerun of her exclusive interview with the channel and here the old saying prove how right it is again, do NOT judge a book from its cover. Mrs. Rancic is nothing like I imagined at all… I didn’t know she have a master degree on journalism, I didn’t know she met her spouse in such lovely romantic way every women ever dream of, and I didn’t know that she is fighting against a breast cancer.
Her story of life turn out to be really inspiring, an ordinary girl from Italy who survived Hollywood. The point is, her insight about to not losing hope over anything happened, good or bad, is important... and giving up is never an option.

Another thing I vividly remember was when she talked about how lonely she felt at that time, the time when she first diagnosed with the cancer... I think we all can relate to that lonely feeling, don't we?

Now let’s take time off before you continue reading this post, because the questions I’m going to ask you next will take a little more honesty between your heart and your brain.
So, ready?

How often do you feel unhappy?
How often do you envy other people for having a better life than you?
How often do you think the world is crazy and you can’t keep up with things going on outside you?
How often do you pity yourself?
How often do you, after everything, realize over and over again that those things I said above is not even true?

…See, it’s just our mind playing tricks. Life is all about gratitude and perspective.
Let’s said we stuck in a bad traffic jam. We can choose whether to curse and blame everything or we can still be thankful enough because at least we have a car and we have somewhere to go. There is nothing more exhausting than living a life without purpose, no? So let’s say thanks to the mighty Lord that we have somewhere to go, something to do, someone to love, and somehow life to live.
If you ever feeling lost and alone. Please remember, there are billions of other people who get through the same thing as you… some are even worse than you. Of course I’m not suggesting you to not doing anything, in contrary you can do bunch of things and what you gonna do will be the right thing to do.

Pretty sure I make you feel like you read some rhetorical self-help theory… Boy, I used to think so too. But now as me myself getting older, it is all true Sister, every little bit of those chitty-chatty oh how I wish I could realized it a little bit earlier.
But that’s life, right. The process in every step of it is what makes life precious, and of course… worth living.


Love, U.

Friday, July 18, 2014

Make-up haul: The Face Shop, Etude, Maybelline


So it's actually quite a long time--if not forever--since the last time I'm doing a beauty review. These are my recent buy, and some of stuff isn't include in the picture above because I bought it after I took the picture and I'm too lazy to re-shoot it... you guys not even shock right?

But first, a little life update, I'm still try to keeping up with everything because all things are amazingly seems new for me right now. And it's not what I imagining at first at all, so I feel grateful but also a little confuse too. There are so much to handle at the same time, glad to finally able to check some of those from my never ending to do list. So what I'm still currently doing now is decorating my house (halfway to go!) and FINALLY start looking for a job after being unemployed for a ridiculously long time... other than that I'm just spending another ridiculously lot amount of time chillin' in front of my television and doing a casual blogging. Oh-what-a-life, right? life is good...

Then, shall we start digging the shopping bag now?

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Are You My Somewhere?

Mari salahkan saja hujan yang turun terus-menerus di hari Minggu ini, menyebabkan banyak jiwa tiba-tiba kumat romantisnya, atau galaunya, atau filosofisnya.

Semua orang pasti mengalami momen dimana kita mengarang sebuah skenario indah nan sempurna dalam kepala masing-masing. Umum terjadi menjelang tidur ketika mata, badan, dan otak suka mendadak nggak nyambung. Mata susah sekali terpejam, badan rasanya remuk redam, tapi otak seolah-olah nggak bisa berhenti berputar dan beristirahat.
Saat seperti ini biasanya even orang yang nggak suka berkhayal akan otomatis memainkan sebuah rekaan antah-berantah di kepalanya.
Beberapa mungkin terinspirasi dari kisah dalam novel-novel favoritnya, beberapa teringat dari film yang baru saja ditonton kemarin hari, dan beberapa malah akan mengarang bebas… those so called perfect life that he/she probably will never have.

Walaupun terkesan nggak penting, khayalan tersebut menandakan bahwa kita hidup. Kita masih punya asa untuk berharap somehow our life can be better. It’s a good sign, right?

Tulisan hari ini membawa gue ke sebuah ingatan beberapa tahun silam, when I was much younger than I am today. Skenario favorit gue untuk diputar sebelum tidur dulu adalah me, living in a big house with a private swimming pool… kerjaan gue seharian cuma sekolah, main sama kucing peliharaan kesayangan, dan jadi anak mama dan papa yang baik.
Tapi sekarang telak itu semua cuma khayalan. I live in a comfortable house, but it’s not palace-like and no swimming pool whatsoever. Gue juga jelas-jelas nggak memelihara kucing, karena gue ternyata takut sama makhluk lucu satu itu. Yang terakhir, gue memang menjadi anak baik buat orangtua gue… tapi dengan kondisi orangtua dan keluarga yang sama sekali nggak pernah gue bayangkan.

Lalu sekarang, sedikit TMI… skenario sebelum tidur gue sudah mulai agak-agak 18 tahun keatas. It’s now all about my dream job and my future serious relationship. Reality really slap me in the face, how old I actually am to finally think about those things? Then reality slap me in the face (again), you’re 23 going to 24 for a God sake, said it out loud.
Hanya saja kali ini setelah belajar dari pengalaman, skenario sebelum tidur itu nggak lagi lebay-lebay banget seperti dulu. Dalam kesempurnaan khayalan itu terselip sedikit realita… which is also a good sign, tanda kalau si pengkhayal sudah semakin dewasa. Khayalannya pun sekarang nggak lagi sempurna.
But I can’t help thinking now… everytime something or someone happen to my life, pertanyaan yang sama selalu menggema dalam pikiran;
Are you my somewhere?
Apakah tempat yang menjadi tempat tinggal gue sekarang akan menjadi tempat tinggal gue selamanya? Apakah orang yang dekat dengan gue sekarang adalah orang yang selamanya akan menjadi begitu? Apakah yang gue kerjakan sekarang akan menjadi pekerjaan gue selamanya?
Apakah gue akan berakhir seperti ini atau seperti itu?

Mempertanyakan kehidupan itu memang menyenangkan dan melelahkan dalam waktu yang bersamaan. Because life is full of surprises, we never know where the road will bring us to.
Cara mudahnya tentu saja kita harus menjalani saja apa yang sudah disediakan. Tapi namanya manusia, ‘are you my somewhere?’ pastilah menjadi pernyataan yang selalu menghantui… ada kalanya kita berharap jawabannya yes, atau malah berdoa keras-keras dalam hari supaya jawabannya adalah no.

Everybody have their own version of ”my somewhere”, and that somewhere sekarang menjadi bagian dari skenario sebelum tidur kita… hanya saja itu bukan lagi sekedar khayalan kosong tentang senang-senang melainkan sudah menjadi sesuatu yang dipikirkan karena harus diperjuangkan.
Hidup dan bagaimana ia mendewasakan manusia.

Monday, June 9, 2014

A Reflection Moment

22 minutes to midnight and I’m still starring at the blank page in my computer screen, waiting to be written. To be honest I almost never write anything this past few weeks, let’s not blame my mood swing… it’s just that I have many other things to do, and well yeah, I’m lazy.
But then I somehow look into my twitter bio and read, there it is, a label I given to myself, ‘A blah-ger’ and what kind of blogger or in my case, a blah-ger, who never taking care of her own blog? That self-given label should be making me someone who talk a lot of non-sense and blabbing around in my blog, no?

It’s not like I have nothing to share, the fact is I actually have a lot to say…
So tonight after watching Coldplay: Ghost Stories concert documentary while sipping a glass of hot tea with milk, I literally reflect on myself, in a mirror. Then one question popped out of nowhere, “What have you done with this much time in your hand, girl?”
Because I’m currently unemployed, so I basically have so much free time yet I barely open my computer and write anymore.

My life somehow start moving into a new direction, almost like magic, I feel like there is this whole new scenario coming towards me. Considering myself lucky though, all I do lately just hanging out in front of my television set but life is still kindly working well for me.
Me, trying to not being such an ungrateful person should be live a life more normally than what I did lately. Perhaps for starter, let’s not making that A blah-ger label some kind of joke, may I?

Love, U.

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Where Do We Begin? How Do We End?

Harusnya sore hari yang mendung ini gue isi dengan mulai drafting PR yang harus gue kumpulkan dalam waktu dekat ini. Tapi, ya namanya juga gue… seringkali ketika harus ngerjain sesuatu malah ide mampet dan stuck nggak tau harus gimana. Jadi daripada gue buang-buang waktu dengan guling-guling di kasur biar dapat ide tapi malah berakhir dengan ketiduran, let’s break the ice with another ice. Okay, not exactly a right metaphor… intinya sambil menunggu ide yang lain datang, why don’t I write another idea instead.
Di book of idea gue, yang tertulis di bawah judul ini adalah, talking about how I planning (hoping?) my future will be like. As a starter, gue sekarang sudah kembali ke haribaan ibukota Jakarta tercinta. Kembali ke kampung halaman yang sudah gue tinggalkan sejak gue masuk sekolah dasar dulu. Menghabiskan enam tahun di Sumatra dan dua belas tahun berikutnya di Jawa Tengah, kota kelahiran gue ini hampir-hampir nggak gue kenal. Terbukti dengan dua minggu sejak pulang kemarin gue tiba-tiba menjelma jadi anak rumahan. Bukaaaan, bukan perkara Ulfa tahu-tahu tobat… perkaranya adalah, Ulfa nggak tahu jalan sodara sekalian. Karena itu gue jadi nggak bisa dan terpaksa malas kemana-mana.
Ditambah memang pindah itu selalu menuntut kita buat beradaptasi ulang. Ini juga jadi masalah buat gue, karena gue adalah tipikal orang yang agak lelet beradaptasi di tempat baru. Terutama rumah baru. Kalau kata teman gue, gue ini sedikit kaya’ Monica Geller di Friends yang obsessive-compulsive sama apartemennya. So am I, gue bisa uring-uringan kalau tempat gue tinggal nggak sesuai dengan yang gue mau. Tapi berhubung for a meantime gue masih numpang di rumah nenek sambil menunggu dapat rumah sendiri, can you imagine how frustrated I am because I have to take the place as it is? That’s why it takes me even longer time to adapt with everything. Baru akhir-akhir gue mulai bisa terbiasa dan kembali beraktifitas normal lagi.

Jadi gimana kabar gue, I’m fine… Alhamdulillah, sehat dan masih nganggur saja tiap hari. Atau mari kita rubah istilahnya menjadi lebih berkelas… Alhamdulillah, sehat dan masih job seeker saja nih Sis.
Another fun trivia about me (sorry, have no idea that I’ll talk about myself this much in this post) I am that kind of people yang suka jadiin tanggal, hari, dan satuan waktu apapun buat jadi patokan banyak hal dalam keseharian, even kehidupan gue. Mari mulai dari contoh yang paling nggak penting; gue selalu update aplikasi di handphone dan tab gue setiap hari Jumat, jangan tanya alasannya… I have no idea either, I also do a face scrub once every two days start in Tuesday and do a face mask once a week in Sunday, then in Saturday I usually go to iTunes to download any new album that release during that week. Kalau yang kecil-kecil begitu saja nggak pernah nggak ter-schedule maka bisa dibayangkan gimana dengan yang besar-besarnya. Kehebohan juga selalu terjadi menjelang akhir bulan, dimana gue selalu rearrange apapun yang terlewat di bulan itu untuk dilakukan di bulan depannya… dan berhubung hari ini sudah termasuk akhir bulan, itu yang bikin gue nggak bisa nulis contoh tulisan yang akan gue masukin ke portfolio lamaran kerja gue dan malah menulis sesuatu yang lain sama sekali karena otak gue penuh dengan harus-ini-harus-itu-thingy.
Also, kurang dari lima detik yang lalu gue tiba-tiba memutuskan draft portfolio itu ada bagusnya ditulis nanti setelah masuk bulan Mei saja. See, me and my very scheduled brain… not to mention it is eventually a form of never ending procrastination.

So yeah, this is me… where I begin my new life after graduating. Pindah kota, pindah rumah… meninggalkan zona aman sih yang jelas. And how do I’ll end? Itu sih biar jadi rahasia alam semesta saja, gue sebagai pelakonnya hanya bisa merancang dan melakukan yang gue pikir baik buat diri gue sendiri di masa depan nanti. It’s pretty standard… Get a good job, being a sudden workaholic, meet a good man and maybe consider to have a serious relationship with him, and live the rest of my life happily ever after. Mungkin jika beruntung hidup gue bisa berjalan semulus itu.

Here we are live in the world with endless probability where we will never know.
So where do you begin? How do you end?

Friday, April 11, 2014

Love

Beberapa hari yang lalu, out of nowhere seorang teman tiba-tiba cerita tentang bagaimana akhirnya dia memutuskan untuk mencoba berteman dengan salah satu mantan pacarnya. Which is probably a good thing kalau saja memaafkan dan melihat mantan bahagia dan bahagianya bukan dengan kita itu nggak sebegitu menyakitkan dan nggak sebegitu nyebelinnya.
Gue, hingga beberapa saat yang lalu adalah salah satu orang yang sangat sinis kalau memandang soal cinta-cintaan. Karena selama ini gue merasa, what the hell… I’m single and happy, indeed I do, hingga detik ini.
Baru-baru ini juga, gue bertengkar dengan seorang teman yang lain. Mungkin nggak tepat kalau benar-benar dibilang bertengkar sih, lebih ke selisih pendapat. I’ve been friend with her for years. Dari jaman kita masih pakai seragam sekolah sampai kemarin tercetus sebuah kalimat, “Gue harus cari cowok dimana lagi sih ini? I’m tired of dating, gue butuh seseorang yang bisa diajak serius.”
Saat itu gue sadar, wow… this really is a grown up world, teman main gue jaman sekolah akhirnya mengibarkan bendera “siap married” juga. Yang menyebabkan gue merenung tentang betapa ignorant nya gue selama ini. Being single for quiet long time memang bikin gue jadi mandiri dan kuat. Tapi di satu sisi itu juga membuat gue mengambil sisi anti dalam soal pacar-pacaran. Bukan, bukan berarti gue tiba-tiba berubah pikiran dan buru-buru cari pacar dalam waktu dekat ini juga. Hence, itu bukan prioritas gue dalam waktu dekat ini. Hanya saja sepertinya ini sudah waktunya bagi gue untuk sedikit bersimpati sama orang-orang diluar sana yang nggak habis-habisnya ngomong soal cinta macam kalau lo kelamaan sendirian lo bakal mati muda

Is it true that all we need is love? Or love is just something we made up to make us feel better about life?

Bayangkan kalau di dunia ini nggak ada yang namanya cinta. Semua orang hidup sendiri-sendiri dalam rutinitas kesehariannya. Mungkin nggak akan ada yang namanya pernikahan, sex will only exist for the sake of lust and to breed our new generation. This world probably will be a damn cold place to live in.
Gue jadi ingat pernah menonton sebuah film, entah dokumentasi atau malah acara ecek-ecek di TV lokal. Tentang seorang narapidana yang cinta keluarga. Kembali gue mempertanyakan kedalaman emosi manusia. Seseorang yang pekerjaannya adalah membunuh, melakukannya demi bisa membeli sekaleng susu formula untuk anaknya yang masih balita. Kalau sudah begitu, apa masih pantas dia disebut penjahat? Rumit ya memang kalau sudah membicarakan soal perasaan.
Pikiran itu kembali membawa gue ke masalah percintaan dua teman gue.
Yang satu, sudah putus dengan pacarnya bertahun-tahun yang lalu dan akhirnya sampai ke titik dia merasa cukup aman, cukup kuat, dan cukup move on untuk menggeser sedikit status mereka dari mantan ke mantan yang jadi teman. Tapi ternyata hatinya berkata lain, luka yang sudah tertoreh itu nggak bisa bohong… luka yang cukup dalam yang disebabkan oleh hubungan yang dulu berjalan kurang sehat dan berakhir kurang enak itu ternyata belum kering juga. Buat gue pribadi, between me and my exes, akan selalu ada sebuah kompetisi. Kalau kata Samantha Jones di Sex and the City, kompetisi itu namanya “who will die miserably” and I couldn’t agree more. Walaupun terkesan kekanak-kanakan, mari kita akui saja ada sisi dalam diri kita yang seperti itu. Jadi ketika teman gue itu curhat tentang betapa nggak enaknya perasaanya setiap melihat muka dan update si mantan muncul di social media, tanggapan gue cuma satu… Honey, kalau lo bawaannya masih pengen menghunus pedang setiap ada dia, kenapa memaksakan diri untuk tegar dan maksa untuk membuktikan kalau lo baik-baik saja while the truth is you not? Jawabannya pun sederhana saja, “Karena gue nggak enak sama dia. Bukannya kalau gue menghindar dari dia malah kelihatan gue ini masih ada apa-apa?” Yang menurut gue, salah besar. Buat apa sih lo repot-repot mikirin perasaan dia tapi malah nggak peduli sama perasaan lo sendiri. Prinsip gue, selama mantan lo bukan sekaligus bos yang ngasih lo gaji buat makan sehari-hari, then screw him… emang gue pikirin? After that bad break up and you broken my heart into pieces, no way.
Sementara teman gue yang lain, berkali-kali bolak-balik pacaran… kasarannya, semua tipe laki-laki pun sudah pernah dicoba, but still no sign of the prince charming and his white horse whatsoever. Lama kelamaan capek juga kan. Kalau sudah begini, mari kita kembali ke kalimat sakti yang susah dibantah; kalau jodoh nggak akan kemana.

Jangan salah paham, gue menulis sesuatu seperti ini juga bukan karena gue banyak tahu soal laki-laki, perempuan, dan hubungan antara laki-laki dan perempuan. Yang ada justru gue adalah golongan cupu yang jauh dari dunia kencan-kencanan. As you might know… gue berhijab dan hijab gue membentengi gue dari semua perilaku metropolis yang nyerempet-nyerempet Hollywood itu. I ain’t Carrie Bradshaw. But yeah, still I know one or two things about relationship, not exactly an expert, but hey at least I’m a good observer. I observed, that’s how I know things.

So here I am, a single girl who never been in a successful relationship… brave myself to write something about love. I used to be a cynical one, tipe-tipe sok kuat yang serba meremehkan semua yang berhubungan dengan cinta-cintaan. While deep in my heart, I’m a lover and hopeless romantic… in disguise.

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

BALADA SKRIPSI, Part one

Ini mungkin adalah sebuah cerita yang terlambat disampaikan. Seharusnya euphoria skripsi ini terjadi sejak satu setengah tahun yang lalu, dimana normalnya mahasiswa angkatan 2008 macam gue lulus di tahun 2012, bukan di awal 2014 begini.
But since I’m such a strong believer atas paham better late than never, so no regret… terlambat sedikit lebih baik dibanding menyerah dan berhenti begitu saja di tengah jalan.
So where should I start?

Mari kita mundur ke pertengahan tahun 2012, dimana hampir semua teman-teman seangkatan gue, termasuk gue, seperti biasa ngumpul di lobby fakultas dalam rangka bimbingan sekaligus rame-rame ribet input KRS ke sistem online kampus. Masalah waktu itu adalah kebanyakan dari mereka pada stress karena harus mulai mengerjakan skripsi semester itu juga sementara masih ada beberapa mata kuliah yang harus diulang karena nilainya belum juga dirasa memuaskan. Ayo yang mahasiswa tunjuk tangan, kalau lo nggak pernah ngalamin galau model begini, maka sia-sialah masa kuliah kalian wahai anak muda…
Gue, pada saat itu, diam saja. Ceritanya sih stay cool. Padahal nggak tahu saja kalau sebenarnya perasaan gue waktu itu nggak karu-karuan. Sementara mereka stress, gue bisa dikatakan tiga kali lipat lebih stress dibanding mereka semua. Gimana nggak, boro-boro bisa mulai skripsi semester itu, gue barusan ngecek ulang transkrip nilai gue dan menemukan fakta kalau ada sebuah mata kuliah yang terlewatkan, which is kalau gue belum lulus mata kuliah itu jangan harap gue bisa ngambil mata kuliah lanjutannya. Rasanya pengen terjun saja dari lantai tiga kampus gue saat itu juga, tapi nggak jadi... gue belum siap mati konyol.
Jadilah gue dengan gerakan sok tegar, menebar senyum lebar (dan pahit) tiap ada teman gue yang nanya, “Jadi skripsi kapan?” sembari menahan diri biar nggak nusuk semua yang bolak-balik nanya pakai ujung pensil mekanik.
Jangan salah sangka, gue ini jauh dari predikat mahasiswa bodoh... gue cuma, malas. Banget. Akibat malas itu ternyata luar biasa fatal, hobi cabut kuliah membawa sial, nggak cuma gagal lulus di satu atau dua mata kuliah… tapi banyak. Lebih parah lagi ketika gue semakin aktif di organisasi kampus. No, jadi aktivis kampus sama sekali nggak gue sesali, it was a really great experience. Awalnya gue cuma sekedar anggota himpunan mahasiswa yang ngerasa keren banget tiap nongkrong di base camp himpunan, tapi seiring waktu berjalan jabatan gue mulai naik… dari yang cuma seksi konsumsi, jadi seksi publikasi, jadi bendahara, jadi sekretaris, jadi ketua panitia event, sampai akhirnya di awal semester lima gue menduduki posisi ketua organisasi. Sayang perkembangan gue di organisasi nggak diiringi sama keteguhan hati buat rajin kuliah juga. Jadilah kuliah gue semakin ala kadarnya saja.
Untungnya sepanjang kuliah, kemalasan gue diimbangi dengan bukti kalau secara nilai gue nggak pernah bermasalah… kalau boleh sombong, gue salah satu yang dianggap pintar di angkatan gue. Walaupun pintar itu jadi percuma kalau lo malas. Jadilah sejengkel-jengkelnya dosen-dosen gue sama gue karena ngulang-ngulang kuliah mereka mulu, mereka nggak pernah sampai tahap benci dan punya bawaan pengen nendang gue dari kelas mereka saja.
Tapi tetap saja, gimanapun, ngelihat teman-teman gue hampir semuanya mulai sibuk bimbingan sama dosen pembimbing mereka masing-masih itu kenangan pahit yang agak traumatis kalau diingat-ingat.

So there I was, cheered for my friends yang satu demi satu mulai menyelesaikan bimbingan skripsinya. Termasuk membantu mereka kalau ada saja yang minta pendapat ke gue... dalam hati, ada sedikit perasaan, gue sekarang bisa bantuin mereka tapi kalau nanti mereka akhirnya lulus dan giliran gue skripsi… gue harus minta bantuan sama siapa?
Begitu mereka satu demi satu juga akhirnya mulai dapat jadwal sidang, pada waktu itu gue juga dapat jadwal baru… jadwal kuliah semester pendek. Kurang pahit apa coba ini? HAHAHA. Jadi setiap hari mereka gantian, with their white and black uniform ditambah jas almamater, keluar masuk ruang sidang. Gue tetap stay cool.
Gue juga masih ingat jaman teman-teman gue mulai complain satu sama lain soal beberapa teman kita yang obviously sebenarnya nggak layak lulus tapi dengan ajaib entah pakai jampi-jampi apa bisa diluluskan begitu saja oleh beberapa dosen. Di sela-sela gondok dan kesal mereka, ucapan macam “Tau gini kan lo aja mending yang sidang” terulang terus. Ya andaikan proses sidang segampang beli pisang molen di samping kampus ya booook…
Satu sidang yang gue ingat adalah sidangnya Janet, sebuah kesalahan bodoh yang masih gue bahas sampai sekarang ketika dia bengong pas ditanya karya sastra itu apa saja dan bukannya buruan dijawab tapi si anak bodoh itu malah ngelihatin gue, semacam berharapa tiba-tiba bisa telepati. For the sake of mahasiswa sastra Inggris diluar sana yang bakalan sidang dalam waktu dekat, mari diingat-ingat karya sasta itu termasuk puisi, prosa, dan drama ya adik-adik. Jangan kaya’ Kak Janet yang tiba-tiba jadi dodol dan lupa nanti pas di ruang sidang.
Beberapa minggu setelahnya, hari kelulusan yang ditunggu-tunggu akhirnya datang juga. Gue, membuktikan loyalitas sama angkatan gue, ngintil saat mereka gladi bersih. Gue sudah berniat baik hati gitu ya, masih saja mereka jahat Lo-ngapain-ngikut-kesini-in gue. Memang pada kurang ajar. So there was the day ketika gue ditinggal sama teman-teman seangkatan lulus duluan, dan besoknya gue harus ke kampus… sendirian, kali ini menghadapi pertanyaan menjengkelkan yang lain, “Loh Kak, belum lulus ternyata?” tiap ketemu sama adik kelas di kampus.

Di semester baru itu gue akhirnya mulai mengerjakan skripsi gue, masih disambi dengan ngulang-ngulang beberapa mata kuliah yang masih saja gitu harus diulang. Satu kali, dua kali, tiga kali bimbingan gue tiba-tiba stuck di tengah proses masuk bab empat. Bahan skripsi gue adalah novel klasik karangan Charlotte Brӧnte berjudul Jane Eyre dengan pendekatan feminism. Sebenarnya kerangka dari studi pustaka untuk skripsi gue itu sudah selesai sejak bersemester-semester yang lalu, cuma karena lama nggak dijamah, gue tiba-tiba hilang arah… harus gue apakan si Jane Eyre ini? Gue, merasa direpotkan dengan skripsi yang stuck dan kuliah yang ternyata menyita waktu dan tenaga gue lebih dari yang gue perkirakan akhirnya menyerah, gue berhenti ngerjain skripsi gue. Mendadak main petak-umpet sama dosen pembimbing gue, pokoknya tiap ada dia, gue menghilang. Begitu terus sampai akhirnya satu semester kelar, dan tahu-tahu gue sudah masuk ke semester berikutnya saja… masih dengan skripsi yang nggak jelas juntrungannya. Gue mulai berasa nggak enak sama bokap, akhirnya minta maaf sambil nangis-nangis. Bokap gue being a very great dad, sama sekali nggak menekan gue, beliau bilang pelan-pelan saja asal selesai dan hasilnya nggak mengecewakan. Barulah setelah itu gue kapok… no more bolos-bolosan kuliah, no more nunda-nunda beresin skripsi.
Masalahnya adalah, gue nggak tahu harus ngapain sama skripsi gue, gue bahkan nggak punya bahan untuk dibahas. Memang Tuhan selalu memberi petunjuk di saat yang tepat, lebih baik lagi ngasih petunjuknya lewat sebuah Logan Lerman yang tiba-tiba nongol di dashboard tumblr gue, bersebelahan dengan Emma Watson dan Ezra Miller. Berpose dalam poster sebuah film kenamaan Hollywood, The Perks of Being a Wallflower. Nggak nunggu lama-lama, gue langsung cari dan nonton film itu… and there it goes, moment of revelation, gue jatuh cinta sama kisah yang disajikan dalam film itu. Menurut gue, it is, still until today, a hauntingly beautiful story.
Sejujurnya, I have no idea at all kalau film itu ternyata diambil dari sebuah novel berjudul sama. Baru sadar waktu gue keganjenan cari-cari foto Logan Lerman di google dan menemukan sebuah artikel yang isinya perbandingan buku dan film The Perks of Being a Wallflower. Gue, dengan berlebihannya sampai berkaca-kaca langsung download ebook nya, dalam semalam gue menghabiskan buku setebal 230 halaman itu. The book is 17233 times better than the movie, ditambah dengan imaginary indah Lerman, Watson, dan Miller yang membantu gue mengintepretasikan lembar demi lembar novel tersebut di kepala gue.

Begitulah saudara-saudara sekalian, bagaimana gue mendadak mendapat pencerahan yang satu tahun kemudian membawa gue ke moment dimana kucir toga gue akhirnya dipindah dari kiri ke kanan juga. But this story not even start yet… bukan seorang Ulfa namanya kalau hidupnya nggak random dan nggak penuh dengan kebodohan-kebodohan yang bodoh banget.
This was only what happened before I start my thesis…

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Blog and blogs

Last time I really blog a real post here is about in the middle of January and not posting anything again until a few days ago. Do I purposely abandoning this blog? No, no, no... because instead of back after a very long hiatus and bring bad news, I have a good news. Me, yours truly, is finally graduated my bachelor degree two weeks ago!
Because of that I've been missing in action for so many months since I need to focused on finishing my thesis. It was awful. Not only I have to stop writing anything besides my thesis revision, I also stop doing other things in daily basis.. I stop hang out with my friends, I don't quite follow any television series, I have no idea what's new and what's over. But the hard work is worth it, with a little "A" letter in my thesis score table.
Then I actually planning to write something soon after I wrapped up my thesis hearing and waiting for graduation ceremony day to come... yet another problem come up, why my life is somehow full of random problem? My laptop are suddenly broke. Yes, broke, just like that. The keyboard is suddenly can't use, how can I write if the keyboard is not even working?
So finally, after many excuses... I'm here, ready to be productive again. Now that my status change from undergraduate student to an unemployed, I given this unlimited time to work on blog. And when people ask what am I doing after university, my answer is: I write... for my blog. Is the money good? No, no money at all, I just do it. See, I'm not really an unemployed then. At least, I do have something to do.

Also, I have another good news... first, that less then two weeks from now I'll move back to Jakarta. Since my duty here in Semarang is over already, I'm finally coming home. Second, me and janetsaid just launched our new collaboration project! In short, it is a new life diary blog, please kindly click here TheHeartsFlowers.blogspot.com and visit us... the blog is basically talking about us, something like diary but combined with many more happy stuff like random tags, fun reviews, and of course our story series.
Yet no need to worries, me, testing the limits of my professionalism dare myself to manage two blogs at once and I'm so going to nailed it.

Then I guess I'll see you in my next post around the corner. Love, U.

Sunday, March 23, 2014

100 Happy Days!

HI! So how's your Sunday people? (Excuse my awkward introduction, because indeed it feel awkward, I've been not writing here for months! Bad, bad blogger...) But just save my explanation and bunch of excuses about my missing in action thingy for the next post alright.
In this post I just want to announce and ask you to also join a challenge I just heard about less than an hour ago. It is a 100 Happy Days challenge.


This challenge is kinda happening now and after a short debate with myself, I decided to join the crowd. Because oh I love the concept! It is basically a photo challenge where you have to post any photos about things that bring you happiness throughout the day for a straight one hundred days.


You can read and also subscribe for the challenge here and I suggest you to do it now, I mean, right after you finish reading this post okay?


I love the simple intention of this challenge, it is just simply to make ourselves more happy by realizing that happiness is all around, disguising in small matter of our daily life, the only problem is; do we able to recognize it?
Me myself will start the challenge this weekend and I don't intend to fail until I finish day one hundred. Please join me on my instagram: ulfadz and be happy together!

Oh, and don't forget to use the #100HappyDays hashtag on your photos! :)

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Black and Gold Obsession

I realize that personal touch and signature style in the everyday looks are somehow always become that one thing that I manage to remember from someone. I have a friend who wears boots along with almost her every outfits. I also have friend whom I never really know what her real hair color because she change it every three months to different color. Also a friend who always wear the same make-up style everyday.
I don't think it is a bad decision... it's nice to have something, some style that people recognize as a very-you-style.
I personally already have that so called signature style. Jeans, shirt, and outer wear in basic color along with my hijab are me basically in everyday life.
I occasionally find myself rooting in exact same color and style every time I do shopping for clothes or shoes or bag or anything. Black with a gold hardware it is. Not only buy it but what I wear everyday is also always turn out that way.


I really want to be a little bit experimental with my fashion. Not that I don't have the courage to wear something different, but indeed for everyday looks my basic needs is always comfort.
I love wearing a plain shirt and cover it with cardigan, jeans, a big bag so I can bring all my stuff with me all day long, a pretty flat shoes, comfy hijab, wrist watch and my lucky bracelet, face covered with light make-up... and I'm good to go.
Sometimes I do get bored with my own style, but every morning when I get to dressed up... I find myself back to my basic looks, and before I finish deciding if I want to change my outfit or not, I'm already out of time so I just get in a rush, grab my bag, and storm out from my house.
Yet then again, wearing a style that you're comfort with the most is never goes wrong. Because we're supposed to not only wear cloth, we also need to wear our confident and attitude. But indeed, a little fashion and pretty stuff will never hurt.



The universe is always speaking to us.
…Sending us little messages, causing coincidences and serendipities,
reminding us to stop, to look around,
to believe in something else, something more.
-- Nancy Thayer


Thursday, January 2, 2014

Page 1 of 365

So here we are again... first day of another new year. Boy, does time flies. Cliché but true.
I don't really have any resolution for this year actually. Just want to do what I want and what I need to be done. The rest of it, better shush it and I'll keep it well inside my very heart.
But if I have to summarize what I expect in 2014; I expect many good, even great things comes ahead... and, note to self, don't fuck it up.


This is, first blog post on 2014. Happy new year!!